DawnWenHui

2011-01-16T00:40:00.000+08:00

new blog, relink=)
and happy birthday to me,
i'm looking forward today!
http://th-forgottenones.blogspot.com/

2010-12-16T23:44:00.002+08:00

They are the ones who know me and understands me most.

You guys made my life colourful.

i have alot frens over the years,

no matter which stage of life.

but i know that different batch understands me to different certain,

and never does a batch sees me truly.

same for them, as some things would be better to keep unknown.

but, i believe they know the most percentage of me.

because they understand.

i think i'll try to do something to my blog...

i seldom change my blog,

cause there's too much memories in it.

although normally i bad mood den post la...

but really,

those are my footsteps.

so, reluctantly i considered to change a new blog overtime,

but ended up remaining the same.

but now,

i think it's time to move on.

a new beginning should await me...

a brand new website,

brand new skin,

a totally brand new blog.

the only thing which remains unchanged is it's owner,

and i think my method of posting ba...

cause a blog to me it's like a diary,

but i wonder why do i only use this diary when i'm in bad mood. haha

if i start a new blog,

the link will be posted here,

and this shall be the last post for this blog,

and the new post of the new blog starting with this picture.
if a new blog is opened,

it will be opened to public in the new year.

and i promise i'll try my best to update... haha.

with more pics, try.

2010-12-05T23:37:00.003+08:00

i know my emotions arn't expressed very clearly on my face other than laughing la..
but is there a need for you to be so slow in reacting?
it's as if you dun feel anything at all=.=
of is it that you dont bother to care?
after hanging out with others,
you totally changed=.=
like alot ppl realised it,
not only me...
and even ppl not close to me realised that i'm getting angry,
actually the felt i'm angry already...
but i'm pek chek only, not angry...
if i'm angry it's worst than that.
those who know me for years see easily that i'm angry,
cause they really understand...
but do you tell me you dont understand me?
i think at least you'll know the basics of me uh...
if you really care about someone,
you really wanna go feel,
it isn't hard to know what changes she had in her emotions...
even if you cant get the exact thinking of her,
you should know around where le...
but i really dunno what to say about you la...
it's like,
not i want say la..
but for me myself,
i really do feel that those people i know from primary sch understands me best.
it's not the years you know...
it's the feeling...
i just feel more comfortable with them,
i feel that i'm myself...
i was thinking maybe it was the change in my character after primary sch,
but maybe the main reason is everyone?
maybe it's just that our thoughts doesn't match.
ppl will say,
howcome? we do think alike!
that's only those certain parts,
which alot ppl can think alike...
it's the inner which counts you know...
sometimes,
the closest frens have different personalities,
and cause of the different personalities,
they fit perfectly...
i dunno what's the situation,
but i have a feeling that if this continues,
i rather be alone...
because at least being alone i can hear what my heart wants to say.

til the end,
although i change alot for some things,
i'll still say,
follow your heart.
but also,
use your brain when you follow your heart...

2010-11-30T23:47:00.002+08:00

the holiday is quite peaceful lurh...
but it seems to past so quickly...
few days later and i'll be left with only 4 weeks of holiday...
but i didn't start with homework still hehe...

i dunno why,
but somehow i think this holiday nothing much really happened...
but why despite liddat,
i still have the feeling of being stressful and vexed..
like there's something inside my heart unable to open..
or maybe there are things for me to worry about,
just that i don't know,
i dont care,
or i choose to ignore it...
hmmm...
this feeling is always with me for years and years already,
ever since i know what worries is...
but it's just that sometimes i'm too busy,
too occupied to notice this feeling...
i think also because of this,
happiness is always short.
but who holds the key to open the lock for this?
i have no idea where the key is,
what the key is...
it's just like some things i can never figure it out...
for some things,
it just doesn't have definite answers....
it always depends on what point of view we are looking from,
how we think,
and that affects the answer we figure out..
so what is 100percent,
i think nothing is 100percent ba...
then why is there 100percent on earth?
because it is used to prove that things are not perfect...

oh yes...
and, if nothing goes wrong,
i think this year's new year i wont be in singapore...
cause holiday was planned to go some part of malaysia to play,
since we didn't go for holiday for quite long le...
also, didn't go my other gran hse quite long le...
but cause parent's schedules and stuff,
decided not to go...
but recently my mum did mentioned going m'sia for new year,
just that it isn't confirmed yet...
most probably on the chinese calander from 30th to 2nd.
idk what date it is on the english one...
but if it's confirmed i'll tell u guys kaes..
and sorry if i couldn't spent my new year with u guys...
some other year perharps...
cause actually,
i have no idea if i spent my new year in m'sia before already...
cause if i did,
it must have happened so so long ago...
my memories of new year are all in singapore...
ah and, if i'm in m'sia,
u guys can still message me and all...
i'll reply if i should n if i recieve it...
cause my prepaid card has alot money.. LOL...

hmm... i think i'm ending here, since it's so late already...

2010-11-21T17:43:00.002+08:00

previously i was checking on coming soon phones,
and i saw this phone - samsung S7230E wave723.
the phone applications and stuff are all enough for my requirement lurh..
den last mth it was out in i think us,
i was thinking maybe will be out in sg at around like dec...
den yesterday went to top up my superhot 128,
saw this phone in singtel le sia...
i was like so omg..
it really look nice to me though.. haha=)
the line my bro is using,
which would be my mum's soon since my bro wan student plan,
is the ione plus plan...
and for that plan,
the phone only cost $168.
for a phone which is just released,
it's cheap...
the price is near my w595 when it just released lurh...
but i'll have to wait for my mum's line to end den they can change the number n stuff,
which will be at like jan...
by den, i'll be like waiting for 1mth plus lurh..
but no choice,
since the line's not mine...
plus for the sake of my bro's blackberry... LOL
lucky i didn't ask my mum for iphone,
else i think they will be like poke le ba...
the pocket got big hole.. LOL...
realised the phone i like n see til de normally around this price de lurh...
not extremely good kind,
but i think is counted above average le ba...
my 595 was quite popular too,
but it has no wifi...
if got wifi i wont mind using it longer lurh...
this new samsung phone i saw is quite satisfying for my needs le...
5.1 megapixel camera with autofocus and LED flash,
wifi,
touchscreen phone (actually doesn't matter since i wanted a QWERTY pad 1)
um... BADA os, which is i think only samsung phone have if i'm not wrong... the system was only created for like around 1yr or so...
and alot more things lurh...
another thing is,
the phone battery stand-by time is 700hrs for 2G, 600hrs for 3G.
is like almost 2times my 595 battery life...
so i think it should be quite good lurh...
and until now i think there isn't much bad comments about this phone... haha...

so if nth goes wrong,
i think i'll buy this phone next yr ba..
but it'll still be a long time lurh...
at least after my birthday.. haha

2010-11-20T14:19:00.002+08:00

i went through stuffs like this before,
maybe even worst situations...
but to be in a clique,
you should learn how to accept others..
if you're not changing your point of view,
standing on where you are standing,
den the thing would never be solved.
sometimes we should be the one who apologise,
or we should jus ask the other party out and talk things out.
as in talk things out 1 to 1,
not a big gang.
a gang of frens being there you'll never say things completely truthful,
and you're not being sincere in any position.
u see,
asking a gang of people there,
it's obvious u're looking for trouble..
we should know our limits.
sometimes,
there is a certain line we shouldn't cross...
even the closest frens in the world knows there must be a limit to things,
even strangers...

both parties are in the wrong,
but are you thinking what u did wrong?
i said before,
jiu suan normally do things,
we'll have to think over it and see what we should change ourself.
dun always expect others to change for the better,
change to satisfy us,
but we just stay who we are.
that's a selfish act...

in the past i never thought about so much before also,
but i'm learning...
jus cause i start to look from a different point,
i learn alot from stories.
shows, books, things happening around us and happening in us.
all this are learning points...
it just depends on how u see things...

2010-11-18T10:19:00.002+08:00

hmmm...
i'm really sian diao by jobs le lor..
howcome finding jobs is like so hard sia...
it's not as if we're so small rite...
somemore if not that we need some spare cash,
and also for hebe's concert,
i wont go do find this job when i'm going kisiao...
it's like we're trying diff job get diff experience also,
but nobody gives us a chance...
too small, etc..
so freaked out le sia...

i might be opening a blogshop,
but i wonder if anyone would be interested in what i'm going to sell sia..
cos i dun think ppl sell that normally...
still considering,
plus open le next year may not be too free to organise it too...
if i'm opening it,
i shall make everything perfect...
i want to give my best to customers,
unlike some irresponsible ones...

and, i've rebonded my hair yesterday!
or should i say the effect is like rebonding,
but it's not really rebonding.. LOL
cause according to the auntie it's xi zhi,
which i have totally no idea what is it...
den can wash hair anot i also dk,
which is totally freaking me out...
although yesterday at there wash so much times can = 3days no nid wash le,
but the hair will be still oily de what...
so idk lurh... shall see what peiqi's hairdresser says..

2010-11-05T22:53:00.003+08:00

ok i know my blog is like so dam dead lor...
will try to update it often,
and i think i'll do some ammendments to it ba.
think i'll be changing my blogskin soon,
cause even myself is tired of looking at that black skin lor.
although black is a nice colour,
but i realised normally when my mood is no really good then i'll come to my blog.
hmm...

now just waiting for class to be announced,
and i really hope that i can get into 1st or 2nd choice.
although 1st choice is a maths,
but i have to say that i'm really working very hard for my maths now...
or maybe,
not very hard...
but i did work for it.
and i'll make myself continue it.
cause i know,
it's all for myself.

then,
really hope that selina can get better,
although i know this is a long way,
since it is a serious injury...
looking at all the news about her,
we know there's nth we can do either...
only thing is that pray or baibai or do whatever stuff and hope that it'll help...
currently just hope that her pain can be lessen lurh.

yea.
den i know in our life,
alot of problems will get in our way,
stop us from moving on.
but, we must try our best to solve the problem.
although we'll feel tired from all this,
but no matter what we still have to move on.
there's many beautiful moments in future,
and if we dont move on,
how can we see those beautiful moments?

the words are like to myself,
also to many of us ba.
i get to learn n understand alot theory from shows, books and life,
but when i'm troubled,
i tend to forget those theory myself.
so actually sometimes a clear minded person may get messed up too...
there's still alot things out there i need to learn,
and i know i hope to know everything.
cause the actual me is a perfectionist,
but i tend to make myself not heading towards that direction.
cause i know,
nobody is perfect.
so, why make your life difficult when you cannot make it perfect?
being a perfectionist only makes u uncontented with your current life.
so i think that explains my slackness ba...
i only hope that i can make my life happier,
cause after looking at so much,
really,
life is unexpected.
we wont know what happens the next second,
so why make our life so difficult when we can enjoy?

2010-10-20T17:07:00.002+08:00

can you imagine my End of year marks???
omg it's so unexpected for me...
2failed subjects,
1 expected,
other surprised...
but the other 1 really made me too shocked uh...
maths,
24/60 p1, 31/80 p2.
what idiotic score is that?
not like i last time never really study,
get this kinda score i'm not shocked at all.
but this time i got study leh!
so what kind of score is this?
it's telling me that studying and not studying i'll still fail,
going for tution or not doesn't make a difference.
isit?
i'm really totally freaked out lurh...
if overall fail i still ok since my ca1,ca2 and sa1 all failed.
but this sa2 leh...
paper2 fail i also not so shocked cause it's really hard,
but why on earth my paper1?
i was quite confident i'll pass for it you know...
i'm so totally depressed after knowing my maths lurh...
it's totally unexpected=.=
this exam really makes me give up on maths...
what for do i go to tution?
just because i wanted to save my maths...
but it seems no changes were made!
like normally so many things to worry about already,
yesterday that 1 affect my mood,
den today double stab...
totally waste of my time studying for maths=.=
if i didn't study for maths i confirm pass my geography can...
ok the other 1 which i failed is geography,
20/50...
just because i wanted to rescue my maths and i decided to give up geography,
my sacrifice wasn't worth at all...
what a wrong decision i made...
ahhhhhhhhhhh!
freak...
i'm so tired of all this lurh.
how i wish i can escape from this world.
annoymous stress everywhere=.=

2010-10-19T18:04:00.002+08:00

zzz freak sia...
i shouldn't have gone to westmall with my cousin today,
what a totally wrong decision..
u guys mostly should know i like 't-shirt' in the past,
den is like i saw him at west mall today...
not only that,
i see him at the escalator 1 time,
den my cousin beside plus i paiseh so i faster walk away...
i go downstairs buy dvd he come in agn, 2nd time already...
i go outside wait for bus see him agn=.=
3 times in total...
but seeing him totally makes me feel so wrong...
i dunno why,
it feels like i'm escaping from him...
after sending my cousin home den i'm alone on the bus,
i feel so irritated lor...
feel so confused,
dunno what reason also..
den i was thinking,
do i still like him?
i really dunno lor..
i thought i've forgotten him already,
everything which has link to him is gone.
i deleted his number,
deleted his photo,
even the class photo i bought was missing...(not i throw de though.. it went missing when i moved)
so do i still like him?
but although i keep telling myself i forget him already,
den why do i feel so weird when i see him?
i'm really so confused lor...
there's a weird feeling inside me...
like... idk what lor...
haiz.. i think i'mm sort out my thoughts someday..
afterall, i know it's impossible between us lurh.
i just dunno how my brain n heart feel about him now...
i shall let the time show the way...

2010-10-15T18:29:00.003+08:00

hehe...
here i come updating XD
exam's left with only science paper 1,
so happy.
but maths paper sucks!!!
worst paper among all i think.
i studied for it you know...
like so many years i 1st time so study so seriously for maths le lor.
somemore this exam i study like very seriously for all subjects.
except geography..
who ask them put it same day as the maths paper 1.
ask me choose among them of cos i choose maths.
haiz..
ok. today went watching movie with peiqi and garry,
go watch The Child's Eye!
great show to me!
it's like ghost show mixed with romance,
something new for me lurh.
den i think if i'm not wrong it's the 1st 3D ghost show?
idk lurh.
but i feel it's worth watching,
just that if you are afraid maybe you should choose the 2D one.
i watched the 2D version,
and i really feel it's nice.
i wont mind watching again, no matter 2D or 3D.
and i have to say good storyline and acting,
from all actors and rainie.
idk why rainie choose to act in a ghost show when she's afraid of ghost herself,
but her acting in the show is quite nice lurh.
den quite a number of ppl went watching the movie,
but maybe cause is ghost show den 2D de so not that full lurh.
realised most is girls,
maybe cause is rainie's fans so go watch ba.
great sound effect and picture quality,
den although is ghost show but got some laughing and touching moments too lurh.
if you ask me to give a rating for it,
i would give it 4.5.
hmmm...
but during the show there's some boys who are extremely idiotic lurh.
like idk why they laugh for la. at the wrong point lurh.
such a great movie,
can see the effort put into it.
but the boys are like spoiling the movie lurh. lols.
anyway,
i really recommend the movie lurh.
but those really afraid can dun go la.
just that i feel it is worth your money and time to watch it,
since i think this kinda storyline isn't seen often too.

2010-09-26T19:27:00.003+08:00

命中注定是真的吗？
如果是，
那我能肯定s.h.e的友谊是命中注定百分之百的。
但我们命中注定的友谊出现了吗？
我不能肯定哪一段友谊是我命中注定的，
但我知道每一段友谊都是需要付出的。

在友谊里人数不定，
但肯定的是每个人都需要付出。
我们有很多东西需要付出，
但最重要的是信任。
我记得三只说过，
她们会这么好就是因为他们给对方100%的信任。
所以，我们要给对方信任，
把我们自己交给她们。
这道理和交男朋友一样吧！

就好像hebe的一首歌《我对不起我》，
我们如果太保护自己，
因为害怕自己受伤而不敢放手去爱，
最后我们只会伤害自己与伤害对方。

and i know i very long never blog le la. but next two weeks or so i dun think i'll be blogging,
since exam is in 2weeks time and i'm really gonna mug.
especially on maths.
even though i'm taking maths tution now,
but maybe cause i slack during maths too long,
i cant seem to understand the questions and use the formulas correctly.
so, i think i'll have to spent more time on it ba.
wish this time maths can pass,
break the thing ba..
kaes i'm going off,
everyone jys for exam too kaes?

2010-08-24T23:01:00.003+08:00

yesterday wanted to post de, type finish cant post=.=
so in the end deleted it lurh...
sian sia.
my chinese standard feels like dropping..
haiz dun talk bout it la.. lol.
u know today i brought 1 book i bought during the previous book fair,
guess how much i buy it for?
it's taiwan book,
those love story novels...
normally those books cost like $10++,
and i bought that book for like $1.90.
so dam cheap right?
that book fair alot things very cheap lor...
like i bought a portable stand,
mainly for putting books or laptop de la.
but cos the plastic too thin i scared put laptop ltr the whole thing spoil,
so i use it as file and book stand only. LOL
anw that book the story dam nice la.
i conpleted it in like add together few hours only ba.
today morning start reading,
go home finished it XD
the whole story is nice lurh...
but the ending abit short la.
the ending if extend abit longer will be even better lurh.
but i think the book is dam worth it lurh...
any1 wants to borrow,
ask from me=)

ok now next thing is hebe's new album.
she's using her own orginal chinese name tien fu zhen 田馥甄，
the album name is .
it will be out in sg on 3/9,
and no pre-order but 1st batch of stock will have the dvd lurh.
idk if all the batch will have la.

at 1st i only know in s.h.e heard that hebe have like most talent or some sort of thing in singing,
den after that heard that she's going to have personal album.
den cfm they 3 sing de at least not bad de rite?
so i thought i jus support, buy the album lurh.
den now after hearing 2 songs,
really feel she have the talent in it.
the song feeling is abit different style from s.h.e de songs lurh.
cos she is 1 person ma..
can try some style which a group cant.
her 1st song for the album is simple.
it is simple in both the lyrics and tune,
the lyrics is like 5-6 sentences only ba.
the mv 1st 1 is mysterious one,
while 2nd 1 is the official one.
actually to be frank,
when i 1st saw the official mv i was thinking it was quite like those kinda discovery channel show or documental show sia.
cos really too much variety of animals la.. LOL.
but listen afew times le can catch what the song means lor..
it's a simple song with simple structure,
maybe some feel not special.
but i think the meaning behind those simple words is really meaningful lurh.
den the 2nd song, <寂寞寂寞就好>
is more to my liking lurh.
cos it's a sad song.. LOL.
but idk,
i feel the feeling all those is better. haha.
kaes la. i introduce so much le,
but it depends if you guys wanna go listen see lurh.
or maybe i change my blog song ba. LOL...
help her do some publicity bout it.
cos i cant copy n paste,
so i lazy type link la.
u can always ask me for the link on facebook,msn or sms me.

2010-08-08T23:51:00.002+08:00

ok, sorry didn't mean to post this post which i think will be quite sad la..
like i just posted that happy post hours ago bout yesterday...
but i'm just afraid i forget..
cause this was supposed to be posted days ago or weeks ago,
but i just didn't know if i should post or not...
like it's something i heard n learnt from the radio or drama,(i forget which)
but really makes me think alot...

you guys should know,
i always look back.
and we always think about going back to the past.
but, maybe this thinking is wrong afterall...
cause the thing i heard was,
this may not be the actual thing but i think it's close la...
oh i remember it's from the radio.. LOL
was heard on my dad's car,
on the way towards sch during morning,
and the radio station was 95.8...
anw it's a translation,
so pardon my english la=.=

"life's like driving a car.
we're the driver,
and there's a mirror for us to look back.
from the mirror,
we will see the road which we passed by.
looking back through the mirror occasionally is alright,
so that we can prevent accident.
it's like in life,
we will look back to change ourselves,
and move on towards a better future.
but if we keep looking through the mirror,
we will still get into an accident.
and the accident will be with cars from a different direction.
and,
we should know that the damage from the front is bigger than from the back.
also,
this reflects to us that if we keep looking back in life,
it will prevent us from moving on.
and so,
we'll be stucked."

it really set alot thinking on my part...
i was thinking,
am i really wrong?
wrong on my believes?
i still didn't sort things out clearly from it,
but i know that,
those words really makes sense and i should give good thoughts bout it.
maybe afterall,
we should move on.
but i still cant let go of the past...
or isit i dont want to let it go?

shall still think bout it when i'm free la...
afterall,
that's one of my abilities...
to sort all those theory* out..
hmm...
i think that's all ba... LOL...

yea and my body's really giving me trouble...
wonder if it's really those sports injuries...
but why do they only come out when i've stopped sports?
and i really dun wish to give up sports...
haiz really alot things to worry about..
see first ba...
only need to focus on 2.4 now,
and wish my legs and body would give me good performance on that day...
afterall,
sports means alot to me.

2010-08-08T18:31:00.002+08:00

yo!
this post was meant to be posted yesterday, but i'm lazy. haha
yea. yesterday went to play batminton @ clementi,
really enjoyed the trip.
me n joyce dunno y keep laughing while we play,
but i think maybe the effect we always had in the past ba...
but i really thks u guys,
cause yesterday was one of the best days for my whole 2010..
it's been a long time since i laughed so much in a day,
and the laugh was from the bottom of my heart.
now i know why i treasure this friendship so much,
cause the feeling's really different from other friendship.
each friendship has a different effect,
a different feeling.

2010-08-01T19:46:00.002+08:00

hmm... i think from now i'll start really studying ba...
i dun think i can concentrate in class still,
since it's really dam boring.
but i'll try my best to study myself at home lor..
that's the only thing i can do.
cause i now see,
i keep slacking also cannot what...
have to make plans for my own future le..
since i always say our future is in our hands,
so we should control it in a way it's good for us isn't it?
and also agree to what my aunt says,
school life is like only once la..
sec sch you future want go back also cant le..
not like cant but you wont even wan go back rite?
haha...
so,
i shall really work hard now...
wish it's still not too late ba...
also,
wish i'll have the will to work hard since i've been slacking so long...

2010-07-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

i think this month, or around here,
i'll think back about sec life and things about me or happen around me ba.
wish to find place for improvement.
maybe i'm living the slacking life too much,
i've forgotten about the other me who is a perfectionist.
i still remember...
i'm a person who either doesn't do it,
or give my very best and make it perfect.
i think it's time i should consider improving myself.
quite long i never zi wo jian tao le...
i still remember,
it's one of my principles.
to improve myself,
also spot my own mistake and change for the better.
sec life was a big change in my life,
in all aspects.
what happened cannot be changed already,
but i can plan for the future.
i wish to start changing the way,
wish it's not too late after all.
i should reconsider my available options,
and replan my future and myself.
everything around me should be given a new chance,
a new future.
actually this post was meant to be in chinese la..
but i suddenly lazy to type in chinese. LOL...
somemore when i wanted to write,
as in the first few lines came to my mind,
it was that it's time for me to zi wo jian tao le.
den english mix chinese,
idk to do what. so type english. LOL...
but i may post things in chinese for the next few posts lor...
cos i think in chinese what..

it's time for a new beginning to begin~

2010-07-26T16:03:00.002+08:00

idk how long more can i still hang on lar..
but i'll try,
all the best i can.
glad that you're trying too,
and that means greater chance for us.
i really treasure this between us,
if you guys don't know.
not only cause you are my sisters.
you know,
i truly treasure every friend around me.
every single one.
because i know each friendship means a different thing,
but together they got similarity too.
but i treasure things between us most,
it's a feeling.
feeling between us is not just purely friends le...
it's like a family feeling..
so i really wish all of us to work hard,
try our best kaes?
i know it's a tough year,
but isn't it the same for everyone?
we're each others' pillar of strength,
so i wish we'll continue to support each other.

2010-07-24T15:24:00.002+08:00

today's fun day wasn't good=.=
only happy that saw teachers n eva...
like others idk what happen,
whole feeling wrong.
the pupils in btps like so little now...
alot didn't go ba...
den our batch also like alot didn't go,
i think some go awhile only ba...
den all just like smile, chat abit,
den walk off=.=
haiz..
those expected to go didn't go either...
n both of u,
dare dun answer my phone uh=.=
NOT COMING ALSO SMS OR ANSWER MY PHONE N TELL ME RIGHT?
let me wait.
somemore i very gd still call le=.=
ok la...
everyone dun want to go,
den sua la...
liddat next year i just ask teacher out jiu hao=.=
dun even need go back liao.
like i travel so far back,
for the sake of ppl n primary sch.
den the funday wasn't fun anymore.
i thought our batch was the most enthu bout this,
i was wrong.
all was the same=.=

-----------------------------------------------------

ok.
this was meant for certain ppl,
but i think the knowledge is good enough for all.
cause i dun think you know i was referring to you.
you guys know,
a complusory thing needed in a friendship,
is trust.
if there is no trust,
a friendship cannot be long.
just like in a relationship.
if you do not trust others,
others cannot trust either.
and if you hurt others by not giving trust,
it will result in others not able to trust in future either.
this happened before,
so i know it.
like if we allow this to continue,
we will not only hurt the current friendship,
but we will also be afraid that other friendship end in the same way.
so therefore,
we will not trust anyone in future.

if things really end this way,
den there's really no turning back.

2010-07-12T17:46:00.002+08:00

i dunno why i suddenly wan write that also. is when i bathing suddenly think of de.
feel quite true,
and the feeling is right too. haha
hmmm...
i think still not bad ba...
but some parts i dun remember le,
so abit not fluent.
but overall still ok la...
maybe can change into a song bout frenship sia...
lol.
but before that must get some more chim de words,
den link the whole thing together la.
LOL..
will do things slowly.
but nvm,
and here's my update. haha XD
realised my blog like going dead liddat,
so ya. LOL

2010-07-12T17:35:00.002+08:00

我们总认为朋友会和我们在一起一辈子，
总一起梦想未来要一起做什么。
但是，我发现一切都是我们还没成熟的想法，
我们未成熟的看法。
我们把一切都想得太美好，
忘了这世界的一切困难。
世界，往往不像我们想象的那么单纯，
我们是被细心保护的小树。
虽然，我们认为我们已经长大了，
但是还有很多的事实是被掩盖的。
我们还有很多东西得学习，
还有很多难关得过。
虽然乐观是好事，
但是看事情还是得看两面吧！
我们需要保持最乐观的态度，
同时也必须作最坏的准备。

2010-07-03T11:40:00.002+08:00

at the moment dun feel like posting,
but just give a sentence which i suddenly thought of la.
lols.
cos u know i always suddenly got gan chu,
like suddenly realised how things go.
cos i slow in thinking la.
LOL.
k.

The Past Cannot Be Changed,But We Can Decide Our Future.

isn't it true?

2010-06-23T22:18:00.002+08:00

3rd post of the day sia...
wonder why today keep wanna post..
hmm...
today afternoon started to rain agn,
so sian...
like wth last week rain so much this week keep raining agn..
den i face the com nth do, jus off it. lols.
like ok holiday was dam bored without a work,
but working is like so tiring.
why isn't there something to focus for,
and can be enjoyed.
hahas.
hmm...
offline le den i lie on the bed,
thought alot.
den actually realised different batch of people got different thinking.
not only we think so differently with the adults,
even the people of age near us think differently.
if you realise,
you can see thinking of us and our seniors and juniors have some difference.
may not be of big difference,
but there is bount to be difference.
maybe is because of different batch have different thinking ba.
we see things differently.
like the older batch is using blackberry now,
but our batch is using iphone.
same logic lor..
so actually we cant really blame our parents for not understanding us la.
cos no matter what,
they are of big age difference with us.
but the thing is about,
why we can understand what they are thinking but they cant understand ours?
is it because they really cant understand,
or they dont even try to?
cause we dont really want anything seriously big or what from them,
not difficult to achieve.
we only want a simple understanding from they,
understand what we are going through,
give us their support.
but ya...
parents still cant understand la..
but,
partly also our fault.
because they dont try to understand us,
so we dont try to let them know what we're thinking.
thoughts are not shared,
therefore understanding is not there.
sometimes when we are really tired,
pace too fast,
we should always slow down our pace.
stop for a moment,
take a rest.
slowing down will allow us to clear some thoughts,
and we can also understand and look at things more clearly.
to stop and take a rest,
is to prepare to walk a longer distance.

2010-06-23T14:17:00.002+08:00

ok. that's some random chinese post,
i think i may start writing some feelings and so in chinese agn.
cos realised last time keep writing,
den now keep changing things to english.
my chinese writing drop alot.
so i think will go back to writing chinese ba...
or maybe mix lor.. haha.
homework still not done,
but tution was not bad.
i realised actually i know how to do things lor...
just that i cant remember the formula.
so will try my best to remember all formula=)
hmm...
holidays ending soon,
looking forward,
but also not.
like so sian of food at home la...
but i become bank,
den no money for myself=.=
wish tonight he gets back his money and returns me my $40...
else i wonder how i go out on friday=.=
dun wish to touch my $50 note lar...
den my $30plus mum also haven return me=.=
i really become bank le sia...
after i saved money this holiday.
but wish i wont spent the money i saved this holiday after school reopen.
else waste all my effort sia...
at 1st i already said december i wanna try hebe's hairstyle,
but holiday go watch 斗牛要不要 and 恶魔在身边，
den cant decide to cut short of leave it long but change hairstyle agn=.=
cos hebe hairstyle dam nice lar...
but idk if cut le will look dam weird anot.
den rainie de long hair dam nice also=.=
like rainie show saying dun cut,
hebe show saying cut=.=
i think shall think properly ba...
since i still have months for me to think over it. haha.
but will not be cutting my hair during this period...
even though i really wanna go cut sia..
cos like i have this feeling my hair really out of control.
fringe abit too thick den hair long le also.
long nvm but fringe long den if curl dam sian lar...
somemore now long le idk if at sch still can last how long without being caught.
lols.
cos last time i swipe that fringe ms lee cfm cant catch me de.
my hair curl de good point.
now i think still cant catch.
but awhile more longer le maybe can catch dam liao.. lols.
lets see how it goes ba...
chinese direct translation,
the boat reach bridge head auto straight. LOL. sound weird.
but i think u guys know what i mean la...

2010-06-23T14:07:00.002+08:00

人生中，有十分多的道理与理论存在。
很多道理是我们大家都懂的，
很多是每天都看到的，听到的。
但是虽然我们被道理围绕着，
我们心中也知道很多，
我们真的有用到吗？
这又是一个问题。
常常，我们都懂的道理，
遇到了情况却被遗忘。
道理；理论，
是生命中必有的东西。
但是我们必须在适当的时候，
把我们所知道的，所会的，
加以并有。
常常很多事情可以轻松地就被解决，
但是我们却忘了最轻松的办法。
有时，我们会选择遗忘，
应为我们怕面对现实的残酷。
现实，是残酷的。
但是，逃避，并不能解决问题，
反而把害怕与无能表现出来。
大家都可以是最强的人，
但是应为我们很多都不敢面对现实，
造成很多事都没有解决的办法，使我们不能前进，停留在此时。

2010-06-20T22:14:00.002+08:00

k i'm here agn!
haha.
this few days keep coming up uh...
haha..
now on this china website thingy,
sort of like twitter liddat.
alot celebrities up there.
real de ok..
cos they got verification de.
of course,
cos s.h.e play den i go play de la..
go there mainly to see what they upload,
their latest news and so lor..
actually quite fun la..
maybe u guys can go try?
this is my web http://t.sina.com.cn/1750971987

hmm...
was supposed to do maths hw today de...
was planning to do..
in the end?
end up playing 2 lvls in maple den watching show..
hehe i zai hor..
2moro mus do. else idk what to do during tution.
previously said try to write song,
but i realised quite hard la...
cos even though my chinese not bad,
but sg de chinese is still not perfect de lurh.
like standard not as high as taiwan there de.
but i'm still trying. haha
i think for it to be easier,
i find 1 song which i like the tune.
den follow the word pattern,
write out.
den liddat slowly edit long le should be know how do le ba..
haha.
but will only do during free time lar...
cos is just a new thing to try,
may or may not suceed.
just get experience ma...
no loss,
and may have gain haha.
scarely i can become song writer also.
hehe.
realised my typing quite alot is chinese direct translation sia..
but lazy type chinese,
and ppl reading the post hard to read also ba..
even me myself see too much chinese woords also lazy read..
LOL.
hmmm...
shall go yan jiu my songs. hehe.
2moro shall chiong maths hw 1st...
idk how do lit=.=
see how ba.
cya guys. XD

2010-06-18T17:20:00.002+08:00

thks guys.
yang also. haha.
yesterday night your sms came at the right time sia...
i think 1st time sms with u so late. lols.
hmm...
i'm better already la.
after posting and ...,
i shall not elaborate on ... la. lol.
my mood was really better.
only wish for some sports or cycling so can fa xie la...
but obviously nobody can pei wo=.=.
lols.
unless i go to bukit timah there or bukit batok there uh...
really know nobody which stays near me who likes sports...
so dam sian lurh...
today slept til 11,
so pro right.
den came online,
waiting while my shows load n download...
den reading my storybook here,
playing games online n listening to music.

somehow now i really like my w595 alot.
haha=)
in love with my dear phone man...
even though sometimes i drop it or so,
den got abit scratches,
but i still like it alot.
but now after being at nubox yesterday,
suddenly feel like buying ipod touch.
lols...
last time got think of buying iphone,
but not really want it that much la.
cause still support sony ericsson,
den idk what's the use of having an iphone either.
lols.
but idk if ipod touch can go online anot??
lols. kaes i'm like so outdated in info of apple stuff.
haha.
but i jus want ipod touch cos of the uses,
den best if can go online.
i'm sure if i get to buy it i'll load the ipod touch with music n shows la.
best is that i can get my hands on a 16gb de.
should be enough i think.
32gb dam good,
but maybe abit too large uh.
can upload afew series of shows up there if i zip the shows already.
but quite ex also i think,
so idk if parents will let sia...
but will ask. haha=)
but the thing is that i'm going to check if it can go online now=)
alot ppl using iphone,
but i'm wanting to buy ipod touch.
weird uh..
haha.
but actually iphone also not bad lar..
just that i think better to have seperated music device.
else,
maybe i'll buy ipod touch den get iphone years later.
lols.
by then i think iphone will have so many new editions,
and will be abit outdated since blackberry is coming up against it now.
blackberry is also dam hot now can.
haha.
but until now i still don't see the interesting part in it lar..
maybe will when i get somehow abit older.
haha=)
i'm having slow reaction towards the 'in' stuffs yea...
just going for what i like=)
being happy,
being yourself is the most important isn't it?
ok... my post is having such a big change in mood uh.
haha.
such a big change in topic too.
kaes i'm random.
den a random bye now. haha=)

2010-06-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

haha... today 618 is ella's birthday=)
lols... 617 was their 3dog birthday.
the childrens of selina's dog pinky.
ok. so that's happy birthday to the dogs,
and of course to ella=)

k the starting was random.
just something i was reminded of when i wanted to type.
but the feeling which made me post wasn't that la.
jus like the whole holiday was so sian,
i camp at home now n do nth...
face the boring computer which i cant leave it,
do boring stuffs.
monday best lor...
cos got new episodes of show to keep me busy for like around 4hrs?
but other days i jus sian around online.
mapling, audition, find dramas to watch,
stare blankly at the computer.
like this few days got back watching old dramas which i liked alot,
suddenly feel stressed.
the stress doesn't come from the dramas definitely.
they was inside me all along.
just that i always don't express myself,
dont show it out.
actually i think this year i already changed due to the change of enviroment.
like i became more straight forward or so.
somehow good,
somehow bad.

from last year to this year was terrible.
like so much happen,
to me and around me.
other than the change faced during the period of sec 1 start,
this was the major 1.
i think the worst things which happened to me all happened during this period la...
but ok,
some frens will know some parts of it,
but definitely not the full story.
i dont think i'll let any1 know the full story la..
like ok,
i'm so zi bi.
just wish typing my feeling here will make me feel better,
like not so stressed up.
archade was a dam good place for me to destress for a moment,
but dun wanna keep going there la.
isn't a good thing to me or my pocket.

like so ... ,
volcano going erupt like that.
ok so i gonna control that.
i know it's not the 1st time that i felt things are best to be a dream,
but reality is reality.
just need to know how to face it and solve it.
like wtf=.=
pek cek lar...
i think i really need a break.
but that's impossible,
right?

will try to find a way to get out la.
haha...
like the,
i dun get out i'll be trapped.
dun wish to be trapped kaes.
haha
ok idk what crap i'm talking anw.

gonna have tution on monday,
maths.
wish things go well when school reopens lor.
i shall try to begin a fresh new me.
stress,
please go away. go into the cotton or what n not into humans pleaseeeeeeeee...

-ok, i'm not referring to any1 of you in the post.
things n matter i'm referring to i think only yang may know abit,
since i think i did mention some parts to her.
but i dun think any others know,
so ya.
dun think to much.

i shall start a new beginning,
when the next dawn comes...
or mayb the one after the next.
lols. i think i'm gonna keep dragging on.
haha. ok really feels better after this post.
thks blog,
you're my life saver.
OMG 12.33 already.
i gotta go sleep=)

2010-06-11T10:11:00.002+08:00

ok... that's a new playlist. haha.
some songs are for some ppl,
but ok la...
is cause i like the songs.
i think there's no cheerful songs there,
as usual=.=
wonder when can i start listening to cheerful songs.
haha
yea.
holiday was alright la..
with my homeworks untouched=.=
but the work experience i got from those part time jobs really alot,
i learn alot too.
but i swear that i dun want to give flyers in public anymore!'
except letter box and door to door.
it sucks man...
like doesn't suite me at all la...
a person like me who is so anti social,
or should i say dont like to talk to strangers,
or even dont like to talk,
have to stand there n give ppl flyers,
talk to them,
and take their anger.
no.
i cant do it.
doing it will make me unpredictable.
the next moment u may see me unable to take it anymore,
and throwing the papers into a person's face.
hmm...
giving up half way is what i normally does...
but not at job until now.
but ya...
i shouldn't give up for this job which pay is quite good lor...
but nvm...
just that liddat i think popular i also cant go do in future ba..
cant be in service line.
ok. i shall go and find something to do,
mayb coming bck to post agn later?
who knows...
there's alot things for me to say,
but some should be kept secret afterall.
not me not wanting to tell,
but not within my abilities.

2010-06-07T18:35:00.002+08:00

guys,
i know this period alot things happen.
but lets just try to get over them ba...
ok i know it's hard...
cause alot of things i myself also cant get over it.
and somemore i personally have alot problems...
personal ones which doesn't concern u guys...
so ya...
that's alot stress n i know it.
just let time do it's part ba...
dun force yourself or what.
cause some matters,
needs time to be solved.
we still have a long way ahead,
we'll solve this someday.
it may take very long,
may be even 10years,
but forcing ourselves now wont put things in a good place right?
when we see each other we may feel awkward,
but it'll get over someday.
someday in future,
i'm sure that we'll be together again.
but before that,
we need to have a new start.
not to forget the past,
but to continue walking.
so everything needs time.

it's time we slowly learn how to solve our own problems uh...
cause this 2 years,
problems get more and more,
worst and worst.
and doesn't seems that i'm the only one,
i realised even my idols also.
just an add on ,
ella, your granpa will be alright ok?
there's alot people supporting you.
and lan you shi,
your granpa will be looking at you in heaven,
and i'm sure he doesn't wants to see you being so sad.

2010-05-28T11:50:00.003+08:00

ah and yes.
recently listening to quite some new singers,
taiwan de la...
but feel this period de all quite not bad leh...
i love shadya 蓝又时，some may feel her singing normal,
but i feel her voice have a way to make ppl feel touched.
her singing to me is quite with feeling.
and her songs are written by herself,
something which makes me really impressed.
cause if you really notice and understand her lyrics,
it's nice.
then cos i watch a variety show from taiwan about shadya 蓝又时，
den got to know this new team 棉花糖.
their singer voice quite nice.
high but with purity u know.
like in this society innocent ppl hard to find already.
the singer's quite cute la.
showed her innocents.
den other songs i'm not really impressed,
but 1song quite nice. -再见王子

2010-05-28T11:48:00.001+08:00

something bout s.h.e...
saw this on the official site forum,
quite nice n close to them,
so got it n sharing it here. haha

ELLA
男象男，女似女，既温柔，又帅气
玩篮球，争第一，和乔丹，有一比
穿女装，万人迷，男生爱，女生喜
孝父母，爱姐弟，赚了钱，贴家裏
爱唱歌，爱演戏，演艺圈，创佳绩
人随红，姿态低，善待人，朴实心
为工作，伤身体，康复後，仍努力
易激动，沸点低，会失控，掩面泣
留欢笑，给他人，藏心事，憋自己
劝嘉桦，别这样，要释怀，放自己
工作纍，不放弃，甘与苦，成正比
公司捧，fans追，支持你，十年期
话太多，说不尽，歌迷送，祝福语
身体健，惜自己，人气旺，甜蜜蜜
支持者，留几句，送祝福，表心意

SELINA
台北妹，娇娇女，园园脸，贵妇气
爱唱歌，得第一，签华研，从演艺
取艺名，月亮女，名符实，带仙气
成名时，想过气，平和态，不狂喜
歌虽唱，书不弃，成绩棒，北一女
师大生，有毅力，好榜样，知努力
红歌手，重情意，同窗谊，不忘记
善良女，单纯心，重亲情，乖乖女
常血拼，添新衣，漂亮女，更美丽
本怕狗，不接近，爱粉色，养pinky
易动情，泪涟漪，娇柔态，动人心
对爱情，有憧憬，择男友，才第一
工作纍，体质弱，新年至，多休息
有时间，常锻炼，推荐你，练太极
想吃肉，不客气，顺自然，别委屈
拜早年，祝福你，父母健，妹争气
支持者，留几句，送祝福，表心意

HEBE
16我猜，显灵气，17出道，多才艺
歌唱赛，唱两句，当明星，是天意
娇小人，精灵气，多充电，有潜力
不争抢，轻名利，镜头前，不吭气
话虽少，有主意，一出口，惊死你
言语直，不躲避，无名冤，受委屈
别改变，率直心，就喜欢，这个你
年龄小，最独立，念爸妈，在心底
虽偶像，也歌迷，见巨星，照样虚
真实态，美少女，不虚假，有心意
冷在外，热在里，别误会，她不理
养宠物，不攀比，流浪狗，领家裏
扶贫苦，献爱心，慈善年，拒收礼
厌吃肉，素食女，极个性，小龙女
歌迷追，fans喜，别不满，个子低
纍三年，终休息，放长假，乐死你
支持者，留几句，键盘送，祝福语

2010-05-27T21:14:00.003+08:00

my marks sucks man...
haha. gotta really buck up on maths n stuff.
u know i always remember lyrics and all those,
den recently really into them.
actually into them very long,
but i just dun dare to try.
wrote out the song pattern and all,
i wish that i can sort of explore myself,
maybe try writing songs or what.
really into music,
but you know my singing is so so=.=
i feel quite bad also. LOL.
now got improve la...

but if i can write songs,
like put my speeches and thoughts,
feelings into songs,
then that would be great.
but it's only a dream la..
dunno can fufil also.
main aim still interior design ba...
just that photography is one of my favourite,
den music.
mayb i learn interior design as main,
den other 2 as sub.
scarely i can make something out of this 3 combine?
who knows. haha.
but really fan sia...
how do i even keep cheerful as i wished...
like a smile on my face is always caused by friends,
a real smile from my heart.
but it wont last long,
but still appreciated.

friends are an important part of my life and memory,
so i must say thanks to all my friends.
no matter you are close or just normal friends,
you did a part to make my life better.

2010-05-27T21:09:00.002+08:00

haha...
what a nice thing...
adults always feel that they know us,
they understand,
everything is best for us.

lies,
cheats.
cheating themselves.
they are just adding their happiness onto our sadness.
we all have our own choice now,
they should listen n think about it.
sometimes they just act like listening,
but not even knowing what we said or care.
sometimes they dont even want to listen.

today was thinking what mrs ng n ms teo said was right,
but what happens now?
they wont even give in man...
what's the point...
i rather still be my silencer.
i'll just do my part,
believe in what i believe in,
do what i feel like.
it's my life,
i wont want to spent my life without a way,
wasting it to the max.

what a nice thing=.=

2010-04-22T15:45:00.002+08:00

so what is this shit all about...
does this have to happen?
especially making everything so clear during this period when the exams are real?
WHAT BECOMED OF US?
i thought it wasn't so bad,
i thought it's jus a misunderstanding.
i thought everything will get better,
we can always start anew.
buildings always can be repainted,
bedsheets can always be washed.
hair can always be re-tied,
make ups can always be re done.
but where did all this things go...
everything is out of my hands now,
everything is gone.
nobody tries to retrieve,
nobody tries to catch.
then why start this in the beginning...
from then til now i learnt alot,
i gain alot.
but i rather my life at that time til now was plain,
rather than losing everything at the end.
i tried,
but did you?

ok,
i'll let everything off.
i dont want to care anymore.
never again.
i shall just live my life til the end,
with my dreams and still dreams.
i tried to protect,
i tried.
but i failed.
grabbing onto a person,
is like grabbing onto a bird,
grabbing onto a fish,
grabbing onto a hamster,
grabbing onto a turtle.
they want freedom,
and by grabbing on they wont feel happy.
so i'm letting go,
as i know i shouldn't grab on,
and i cant grab on.
they will go someday.
after this i'll never do it again.

so can humans be trusted?
my answer is,
it depends on you.
we tend to not trust after being hurt,
but in the end we still give everything.
eventhough i kept 10%,
but it still hurts,
i know in the future i'll still trust,
and will still be hurt.
but i wish no more,
this feeling is terrible.
i want nothing from this.
everything is over.
over.

2010-04-21T16:58:00.002+08:00

ok, i'm here to post,
like at last right.. LOL...
gonna say bout sunday 1st. haha=)

sunday, was my happiest day in this year ba...
because that's the day which i got to see s.h.e,
and it's the 2nd time.
the different thing is,
this time i'm going up to see them closely and let them sign,
so i'm very very excited. haha.
woke up like 7 in the morning,
but cause jieqi cant go out so early so wait til like going 1 den reach plaza sing.
we go take auto card 1st,
incase later dun have.
den after that went to see how long is the queue, and it is very long as it went all the way down.
so we decided to go look for a restaurant there,
as the person say go the restaurant eat can get piority pass,
and with that we can be in the front.
after looking for quite some time, found it but piority card no more=.=
waste of time right...
we thought the queue wont like move til s.h.e start to sign,
therefore decided to eat den go look at them sing le den go sign..
who knows,
at 3 the queue turned 1 whole round and it went to a place which s.h.e can be seen.
so decided to queue there,
and we were at a dam good spot to view man..
den who knows,
when s.h.e haven even come out the queue moved=.=
wth lor...
den we decided to wait for them to come out,
but the queue moved dam fast n in the end when they come out we moved.
the whole singing process which consist of 2 songs we couldn't see any bit of it can..
den later when the signing start,
everyone from the back is pushing.
an outdoor autograph session is dam bad already,
to add on to the heat ppl squeeze like dunno rushing to where.
i was like squashed like sashimi can...
den all tall tall de even make it hard to breath lor..
lucky after that i think someone from taiwan,
s.h.e's company de came to control the crowd,
and therefore the crowd slowly spread out and was more comforting.
i think maybe the organiser not so gd in planning in this event ba...
got quite a huge improvement space.
after than me and jieqi wanted to say jiayous, we'll support you forever de..
den mayb cos nervous,
den i'm not gd in communicating with seniors or ppl older than me la...
so when i go up i was dam happy,
but nth can come out of my mouth...
i jus keep smiling,
and i think the smile mayb abit too what,
like got abit shock tio ella ba... LOL.
but being able to see them,
shake hand with them,
i'm dam happy man...
all the wait is worth.

haha... den ya lo....
den actually s.h.e teach me alot n motivated me alot ba...
like now i want to move upwards,
all because of them.
and i know they wont be able to see my blog...
LOL...
but i jus wanna say what i wanted to say to them,
since it cant come out of my mouth.. LOL..

s.h.e, i'll support you guys forever.
it's ur job,
and somehow eventhough it's tiring but i know you guys like singing alot.
because it was your singing which got you to this job,
your voice which let us know you.
but no matter what you do,
just have to be happy.
no matter what happens,
s.h.e fans will be supporting you.
i believe that eventhough sometimes we may feel sad,
but at the end we will respect your decisions,
and support you.
cause afterall,
we want you to be happy.
being able to hear you guys and see you guys,
knowing that you are happy is enough for fans.

hmm...
and,
i think my feelings towards you guys never change,
and will never change.
things between us wasn't going well,
but i wish it will.
i wish to solve it,
and will try my best.
we may not return to past,
as we are all moving forward and finding our future.
but i wish that we will be in each other's future,
instead of only being a part of memory.
things change,
but my heart never change.
ppl change,
but memories and past will always stay.

2010-04-02T19:11:00.002+08:00

我爱他 - 叮当
nice song. haha...
still my style, sad de.. hahas...

anw, the post is not about the song la.
recently wondering,
like from primary sch til sec1 did i change..
den from sec1 til now did i change?
it's lik i always wonder will i do things that ppl may feel disgusted,
ppl may dislike me because of it.
not that i care that much about how ppl see me,
but that is my character a good one?
it is like my target for myself,
what i wish and aims for myself to become.
like cause i know during primary sch my temper is like bad lor...
den my temper is still bad now,
but i dun show it or even allow myself to get angry now.
i was lik in a bad mood for lots of time in the past,
and my moods are very obvious.
but now i dunno is it obvious or not,
but definitely not that bad n i do keep them well.

den this is jus for some ppl,
cause it's my principles,
and you may accept it or not,
but i'm sure it helps you to improve youself.
like cause some ppl any dislike one another,
some ppl may cause ppl to feel jealous of other,
things like that.
but if you know others dislike you,
why not think what is your flaws and try to change them?
changing flaws is not for others to like you,
as there is no 100% of likness towards a person.
even couples will dislike the other partner in some ways.
but changing you flaws is like for your own gd..
hmm...
i dunno la. but it is like self improvement lor.
nobody can be perfect,
but we can try to be near to perfect.
changing youself is for a better character,
at least you will be confident that your character is better than others.
intellectual is not everything,
as even though you may be intellegent,
but if your character and personality sucks den you are not a person worth of others caring or sacrificing for you.
but if you are not intellegent,
but have a great character,
others will give you the respect that you deserve.

2010-03-16T15:17:00.002+08:00

this colour,
like so explain my mood la..
so blue...
like,
you know
范瑋琪‘s 一个像夏天，一个像秋天。。。
my feeling for us,
is like the song lyrics...
but,
i really cannot see the future between us anymore...
like it is really so far apart between us now...
you guys all can feel de rite?
like the feeling weird weird de,
not like before anymore...
i'm really tired le la...
like i really want us to get back,
but like i cant do anything,
and even if i can,
it's everyone's will right?
look at the photos before,
the smiles there aren't fake is it?
then why now we can't have that kind of feeling anymore?
like everything is not in place.
yes,
i know we're teenagers,
we're all looking for our real self,
what we want to be,
what we can be,
and alot more questions,
causing us to be really emotional and messed up at times.
but isn't this a stage we all have to try to cope with?
this stage is just like an obsticle,
by crossing it,
by surpassing it we're a step nearer,
a step closer to victory isn't it?
everyone's changing to get moving,
and we may think of not moving too.
but like the sun,
we cannot stop moving,
as the humans cant sleep,
cant rest,
and will not know the beauty of the night.
but the sun cannot move too fast either,
as the humans cannot see the beauty of the sun,
the good points of it,
and the things they can do with the brightness of the sun.
everything on eaarth have their own usage,
they have different needs,
and they are needed at different places too.
we should treasure things beside us isn't it?
didn't we plan our future,
didn't we imagine what we'll become and do in the future?
we promised,
we believed,
everyone saw the bonding between us,
but where did all those go?
i really dunno...
haiz...
if we really end like this,
den it'll be like a regret forever...

2010-02-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

haiz...
got alot pics in my phone,
got alot things in my heart and mind...
but i really don't know what to say,
what to do...

today was like so scary...
almost cried out la...
cause i went out with liyan n jieqi,
i brought them to a temple near my house to see my turtles and play la...
den i took out my keys and put on the floor,
and i forget to take!
lucky i went back home den realise den liyan mum fetch me there,
and it's still there...
or else i would be like so dead lar...
haiz...

hmm..
this period alot things happened la...
i really don't know what i should do..
it's not my will,
and what can i do on my stand?
everything is not in my control,
in the past i tried alot,
tried to save things,
tried to cheer some people up,
so on and so forth.
but why we do those?
just because they mean alot to us,
if they are sad we're sad too isn't it?
but now,
i really dunno how things change...
it's not only friends la...
is alot more...

alot questions cant be answered,
but if i cant cross this stage,
how can i move on in life?
i have to solve the problem,
overcome the obsticle to move on isn't it?
running away from it won't do any good to me,
but what can i do and what is the best choice?
i won't wish to go a wrong step,
so i choose not to move.
but not moving left me far behind,
and the distance became further and further.
the past went away,
but the future couldn't be reached.
what position am i in now,
and what can i look forward to?
my dependancy is gone,
and where can i go to when in need?
the wall is broken,
left only unstable pillars.
what is left of it?

2010-01-27T18:54:00.002+08:00

really dam tired...
not cause of the studies stress u know...
i know the studies stress will be there,
and i will cope it.
but...
aiya...

i really don't know what makes it til this state,
but this is something i really don't wish to see happening.
i have no idea what you guys have in heart,
and it's getting harder and harder to understand you guys.
i know i cannot change your minds,
so i won't force.
but do keep in mind the moments between us,
think carefully,
do you really wish for this ending?
will you regret it?
i really don't know and don't understand...

2010-01-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

yo... i know my blog dam dead,
will be planning to change the skin and so on,
make it not so dull ba...
will try not to use black, if i can find a white one which is nice=P
2nd day of sch transferred to yuhua le,
now getting abit more used to there already..
wished to get into same class as jieqi,
but never also nvm ba...
will be streaming this year anw...
yea,
and must say that i went in 2e7,
the classmates there all very friendly lor...
but 1st day when i go is their art lesson and is half way,
so i go in they shocked,
i also very awkward...
but now better le la...
played batminton with erra and friends,
erra hyper during the whole pe and i was laughing til my mouth so tired..
lols...
hmm...
short post only ba...
will try take some pictures,
and den update blog as often as i can too=)
cya guys=)

2009-12-31T10:03:00.003+08:00

aiyo...
i'm not talking bout all,
but some la...
i'm a singaporean too,
but some singaporean i see le really very ... leh...
u know in bus normally see old ppl den will have ppl give their seats right?
den in mrt also need do the same de right..
den yesterday i took a long trip of mrt to somerset,
and there's this uncle who i think boarded at queenstown ba...
he old old liao somemore carry things,
nobody give seat to him...
den i standing so i no choice, cant give up.
den he stand til tiong bahru i think...
even though we dun agree with the rules sometimes,
i think it is still a need to be considerate ba...
maybe cause we stand will be for a very long time,
but so?
give up the seat for the needy ones,
cause they need it more what.
we can always find a seat outside if we're tired right..
mrt is moving so dangerous for them lor..
somemore they old or still young,
will be weaker than us right...
aiya dunno what to say le..
kk cya next time...

2009-12-26T18:56:00.003+08:00

muahahahahahahahahahahaha..
lols.. i'm crazy..
lols... ok la..
now happy happy de,
cause my phone jus came back XD
abit not used la..
cos the phone weight different,
den the keypad also got change ma..
haha
but still miss it alot. lols...
now online always listen to song den do other things,
den found out alot singers de song nice leh.. lols..
now busy transferring the videos,
cos i want put new songs in XD
kk i'll be back next time,
cause i want go transfer now.. XD
lols
cya guys

2009-12-23T08:26:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the best man!

so long didn't meet up with sisters,
yesterday had a night sort of small party for christmas.
we like eat n play together,
somehow sometimes abit crazy.
not our craziest time,
but i think is the time which i really laughed from my heart and enjoyed myself this holiday.
really,
i wanna thank u guys.
if i dun have u guys,
really dunno what my life will be like.
i think the way will be different.
even though we will be in different location soon,
but i think that our heart will always be together right?
hope that our frenship is everlasting =D
and i really thank u guys.

2009-12-06T18:49:00.002+08:00

hehehe... i'm back XD
today went malaysia,
den come back very busy...
will be busy tomorrow too.. lols..
muahahahahaha...
a big change in me..
lols..
i'm crazy liao..
lols...
k la.. dun joke le.
i shall not reveal the secret 1st,
it shall be kept as a secret until u find out yourself XD
but it isn't nice,
so i think quite big shock.
looks something like a thing which i said dun suit me..
lols..
but actually is do from that one,
so not much diff..
lols..
but i think next time,
will be nicer.
XD
now i can play with it liao...
lols..
ps, to keep the thing a secret which is not so obvious,
i change alot of tenses...
lols..
and will not be posting any pic of it,
since is secret.
haha...

The Secret Will Be Revealed Soon~

cya.. haha

2009-12-03T10:49:00.011+08:00

these pics taken at kusu island=)
those 2 are my cousins XD

haha...

they cute rite?

the sea view there dam nice. haha

the closest to the camera de is my granfather,

the one <<<>

*gran parents from m'sia

haha... see the one wif a bad is my mum,

the two cousins walking in front,

my gran father dunno wan go where. haha

see he so cute. haha

i forget to take a pic of the stairs and the place.

this stairs is to get down from the place,

the place lik on a mountain liddat,

for ppl to go bai bai de.

the stairs dam alot,

dam long.

but on the way they got put seats,

let old ppl n kids rest ba...

haha...

cute uh?? =)

see the turtle?

unique right...

but pic not very clear,

cos they dam far dun wan move de...

see? dam alot turtles there lor...

see the bell to my cousin's right?

ppl throw coin and try to hit the bell,

like hit le make wish lor...

i throw for fun,

1time tio le leh XD

lucky sio...

den my cousin there say i very pro.. haha

i love the view there,

peaceful and dam nice.

below the pics taken long ago,

when we went to vivo.

see? the christmas tree so tall sio.. lols..

this is i dunno what,
some patterns there. jus take cause looks nice..

the pics quite boring, wish dun mind la.. haha.

jus blog quite plain,

so add pics ba...

2009-11-29T11:56:00.002+08:00

why cant we have that least of freedom?
my time doesn't clash at all,
all nicely going,
why you still dun allow?
i'm staying at home,
since something happen i push away all outings le.
now wanna go a concert only,
you still dun allow.
i'm not a kid anymore,
should have more freedom ba..
an animal needs space to breath,
dun need to say a human.
i never ask for what ridiculous thing,
only the freedom which i should get.
don't you know that pushing someone too hard will make the person go crazy?
haiz..
really dunno u.
this family is weird...
you guys all only think of yourself,
never stand at other ppl's view to see things?
den why should i think so much about u guys afterall...
really a waste of time uh=.=
i rather face the computer than face you guys...
at least is better...
haiz..

kaes finish letting my anger le..
jus ignore this post=.=

2009-11-13T10:26:00.002+08:00

looking for jobs this whole holiday what...
today found ler..
13 also can do leh.
but is give out flyers lor...
sian right?
but need interview,
at bukit batok leh...
den dunno parents allow anot yet,
i think better ask le if want monday then go ba...
see anyone want go together anot.
lols...
not bad la..
can spent time and earn money..
but if count by copies den sian lor..
cause copies is 1000copies den get dunno how much.

2009-11-09T17:30:00.003+08:00

the day before,
which is sat my cous from malaysia came.
den stay til yesterday.
so dam fun.. haha
play with them like crazy man...
OMG...
was on youtube looking for s.h.e's news,
found a video they at causeway point on saturday!!!
walao...
liyan...
why we never go there on saturday..
so sad now sia..
lols..
walao..
they go do the osim thing den got sign book also leh!!!
i cry le la..
i want give them sign my book de...
sobs...
haiz..
wish got another time ba...
no advertisment who knows they at there sia..
walao..
i want go...
haiz...
nvm..
nxt time ba...

2009-11-04T17:13:00.002+08:00

whoa...
yesterday was quite awful..
but got good parts also la..
good and also awful part is that,
netball...
cos good part is the at last got netball ler...
den awful part is cos it was dam tiring=.=
den tiring til i was aching all over..
even until today..
and some today den came out can..
like my shoulders.
dunno why it will ach leh..
both side somemore...
den morning like wa wake up want die liao..
but still wish it get better ba...
my leg also pain,
but that 1 used to it ler...
so like if not so pain den still ok..
just wish i recover so can go training tomorrow without worries..
haha..
wish me good luck lurh.. haha...
yesterday went to watch love happens,
not really nice de..
but ending not bad lurh..
haha..
kaes gtg ler..
cya soon..
cos 2moro i dun think i will online..
since if got go training den sure dam tiring..

2009-10-30T18:48:00.002+08:00

hey guys=)
netball training sechdule out ler XD
tuesday 1st training,
thursday 2nd.
but only lik 2 hours la...
lols... so hai ok lor..
i wish longer actually..
haha=)
and,
mrs lee helping me write recommendation letter XD
means my chances of transferring higher le.
didn't know can write also lor..
is meiling heard others say den i heard her say de.
but i somehow sad leh..
cos i want go west zone competition next year!!!
but if i transfer den very hard liao i think..
cos is lik at the start of the year competition liao..
sad lurh..
i dun want miss it leh... haiz..
but no choice la..
see by then can have chance anot lor.
kaes gtg le.. haha...
looking forward to k.o 3anguo 2moro!!

2009-10-28T18:06:00.002+08:00

haiz...
nowadays alot ppl dun even have basic respect for others...
even though sometimes i dun give too much respect to some ppl,
but at least the basic respect i got give right?
i dunno how others feel,
but i feel that basic respect towards others is important.
cos if you want others to respect you you have to respect them 1st right?
and somemore no respect jiu suan le,
we shouldn't anyhow insult others right?
insulting will hurt others feeling and you wont know sometimes.
so why do you insult in the 1st place?
fun ar?
=.=
this kind of ppl i can only say,
you're childish and completely rude.

2009-10-27T17:45:00.002+08:00

and,
i think i'll be posting alot bout this kinda things..
cause after all this is what's in my mind..
it'll be boring after all la..
so dun need care me.. haha...

real friends should give each other absolutely trust,
but not suspecting others.
even though we may be cheated,
but at least we treat each other whole hearted isn't it?
friends should trust each others,
or else what friends are for?

2009-10-27T17:34:00.002+08:00

hmm...
recently use com always watching shows..
cos from shows and books i learn alot..
and have alot feelings from it..
now watching k.o one,
somehow have a very sad feeling..
just thinking,
maybe for some matters,
we may know the truth right?
just that we pretend not to know it.
why do we need to pretend?
i think cos that will make us feel better ba...
somehow we always dun dare to face the truth.
cos the truth always happen to be something hurting ba..
dunno, suddenly feel that so came to blog.. haha...

and, yes.
trust between people is very fragile.
because it can be changed jus by a word.
we should not misuse our trust,
cos i know that it is hard to gain back trust after you lost it.
i lost it before,
and i dunno if i gained it back or not.
so,
still the same old sentence.
think before you act.
it is always better to be play safe.

2009-10-22T17:26:00.002+08:00

i want go watch fame tomorrow!!!
lols.. abit too agitated...
and i want netball!!
but ms choong say not confirmed yet..
she say most probably is early nov.
OMG... and my results dunno can get into clementi anot=.=
i check movie theatres,
i tio shock lurh..
i thought fame no more le leh..
cos cannot find..
den after that found in cathay.
cos realised is cathay get the i dunno how say=.=
den only cathay still nvm..
i thought go amk hub watch also ok..
den find, dun have!!!
only have at orchard...
suai right...
den i dunno still wan go watch anot liao...
lik i really want watch,
but really y mus go til orchard to watch!!
but nvm..
let jieqi n liyan decide ba.. haha..

2009-10-21T18:49:00.002+08:00

whoa... tired..
as you guys know i'm moving sort of soon...
cos few months very fast over de what...
about jan moving i think...
yea.. so these days helping out,
wish parents not so tired n not so rush also...
but today dam sad can...
got bck 4 results...
the main ones eng, maths, chi n science...
eng i got overall 61.8...
paper 55half.
chinese 67/110..
maths 47/100 SOBS~
science 48/100 sad... but lucky cher says will round up to 50 XD
that means at least i pass for science! haha..
ok siao..
but still sad...
cos abit lik not what i thought will be...
this exam i was confident leh..
but nvm.. wish me all the best ba.. haha...

2009-10-11T14:37:00.003+08:00

wootz... that's my hair now! lols...
looks bit idiot in the pic=.=
today cut hair ler...
i dunno how you guys feel bout this hairstyle though...
wait..
actually is the same hairstyle!
just that it is shorter..
liddat my hair won't block my view,
feels better.
but 1month later my hair will be back as normal,
you should know..

after returning from malaysia headed to jurong 1st...
parents go get letter and so.
den we go to the rooms and see where i want build the cupboard and table.
den we inside there talk talk talk,
they somehow got the designs in their mind already.
parets say maybe moving there before new year,
since my another gran said that not good to move during new year.
so dunno how now,
but i somehow looking forward to my new room,
but miss this house too...

2009-10-08T18:34:00.002+08:00

haiz.. 2nd post..
for frens in dunearn,
the thing is not sucessful yet,
but of cos somehow i wish for it to be sucessful,
since it will be a great push in my future...
but you guys mus rmb that i'll always be there for you,
and you can always find me...
when i 1st came to dunearn,
i didn't feel anything to it,
jus feeling that y the sch so old..
but you guys and of cos netball gave me a belonging to sch,
and i will always rmb you guys...

sisters,
i think you guys know that i'm moving soon...
oh no.. but i haven tell joyce...
i shall tell her soon..
but,
i think we can still meet up ba?
just that we cant go to some1's hse lik til late late le,
since my hse will be lik so far away...
but i will meet up no matter what,
cause no matter how far i am,
our heart is always close together right?
i wish so...

wish that everything goes right,
dun pop anything out ler...
looking forward to my b'dae lik 3months later i think,
but also dun wish that it comes so fast...
i'm missing the house...
and alot alot alot of things...
sobs..
haiz..

2009-10-08T16:06:00.002+08:00

haiz...
wonder what happen to xiao wen xia hui..
if u guys dunno,
thats my 2 turtle..
dunno they know we moving le going let the off,
or they sick or something...
this few days lik seldom eat leh...
the food like morning til now still there...
worrying lor...
haiz.. dun think so much ba..
3exams and half down ler...
2moro geo...
wish that i can perform well this time ba..
this exam so important...
but somhow i have a feeling that the few papers i did like somehow going score quite well leh..
dunno la...
cannot too confident.
not wishing to win whoever also...
cause now them greatest enemy is nobody but yourself..
so i must surpass myself..
haha...
dunno how long i never take exam so seriously le..
wish me gd luck ba.
haha...
haiz...

2009-10-03T14:30:00.002+08:00

hmm... i think i sort of relink quite some ppl... haha..
blog dam dead ler..
but also my fault.. cos very sian liao...
now dam stress..
exams here,
and these exams more important than psle to me...
haiz.. no choice dam nervous..
scared get low marks,
dissapointing results...
wish my results meet the target ba..
haha...
kaes jus a short post,
post agn next time..

2009-09-15T19:36:00.004+08:00

now about sentosa.. lols..
went there on friday,
with church fren.
was supposed to celebrate junliang b'dae,
but he got blisters so cant go,
den we postponed celebration lurh...
but it was great fun plying with church frens too man...
just that we went into the sea,
awhile den rain liao...
so we took the tram and went 3rounds and an uncle ask us where we going.. lols...
cos we took up like 1 i dunno what was that called. forget le...
den after rain stopped we went 2 the bridge shake it lik siao..
took the photos there..
like so nice there lor..
always never take photo so this time i take ba haha=)

2009-09-15T19:28:00.002+08:00

yo=) veryyyyyyy looonnngggg i never post ler hor..
at last i see blogger bck to normal, so faster come post. haha=)
happpy...
lols..
on 3september, the last training for last term we got new coach XD
actually coach keep changing lar...
but this coach told us that she will be here after our exams XD
so happy lor.. at last got coach stay ler..
but she coach us sure dam tiring der.. lols...
i will try do more training on my own...
planning netball camp for dec holidays too XD
wish coach can come too lurh..
our current netball team standard really very low...
must raise you know..
potential one i think lee yi ting is gd...
mavis also not bad.
megan n claire if come more often i think they in for tournament too cfm de...
you see liddat got like 4 ppl liao..
alot more which can help the team de.
jus that our netball all slackers,
not serious about it liddat...
i dunno,
but wish that those who always come can help the sch win something next year..
i wish that we can get into like top 10...
but only wish lor..
if other members no interested,
den i 1person cant do anything ba...
haha..
kaes i stop bout netball ler..

2009-08-12T19:13:00.000+08:00

2009-08-12T19:10:00.000+08:00

tis is 1 song... got another 1=)

2009-08-12T19:00:00.000+08:00

suddenly realised my blog lik dead ler.. lols...
nvm la i hack care also... lols...
2moro thursday agn...
so tiring day.
after swimming still got training...
but even though netball training tiring,
i wont quit it lurh.
since i was the one who wanted 2 join and lik it,
why bother 2 quit.
as long as i lik it rite?
haha...
previously my com spoiled,
den few days ago,
on monday the modem spoiled=.=
den today den fix wor...
few days my house phone not working...
today cause i thought bro not coming bck home,
and i flew home...
den actually the appointment was at 4.30,
the person called me at 2.30...
so was lik i just end sch only rush bck liao...
den come home den knew bro at home...
cute uh...
actually i going for art exhibition de,
den cause it ends at 5 i cant go=.=
if i knew bro here den i go lo...
lik good opportunity sia...
the exhibition at nafa....
maybe nxt time have chance lurh...
got chance i sure go if can ...
nowadays chasing after 終極三國...
quite nice. but fastest uploader only til ep24...
so need wait every friday 12,
or sat den can see lar...
but quite looking forward..
alot ppl chasing somemore wor...
lols...
hmm.... dunno what 2 say ler.. nxt time den come bck ba=)
later upload few music videos...
this 2 singers i realised they sing quite nice...
the guy quite shuai also...
lols... abit diao la...
曾沛慈東城衛<< not bad lurh...
kaes i go find the videos den upload=)
enjoy XD

2009-07-14T23:12:00.001+08:00

song by ah sang... ye zi.
a dam sad song which i'm into now.
touching...
and ah sang died,
a tragic..
she's a good singer...

2009-07-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

True friends?
i know a bunch beside me already.
and yes,
specially there's this paragraph for you.

yang yang,
thks for lending your ear today.
at least,
you know that i'm troubled...
you solved alot questions in my heart for me today,
and i really thank you.
at least i think,
i think i can sleep peacefully tonight.
was quite relieved that you guys wasn't beside me today too,
cause it's too obvious.
almost everything was written on my face i think...
or mayb only you guys know?

talked to alot ppl this few days,
and i really miss u peeps...
haiz...

true friends are the ones,
who are beside you when you need them.
but of course they mus know your situation first.. =.=
they are the ones who know that when you're feeling bad.
and would mostly guess why u act this way already..

i really thank that there's a huge bunch of true friends around me,
and i miss them.
i'm confused somehow by sec sch life,
and wouldn't wish 2 know it.
sec life is stressful.
fastpaced lik a marathon.
forcing you to accept the new world that you may not be ready to accept yet.
complicated problems appearing out of nowhere.
alot more,
but i shall not list all out unless i want 2 stop this post on 2moro morning.

14nov.
what a long way...
even childrens day is before that.
teachers day... what 2 give teachers...
mayb i shall prepare a small gift or card for mdm suzana too.
i really thank her,
her guidance and the caring n love from her is so great.
why isn't there much teacher in sec lik her.
th only 1 closer is ms choong now?
and even though i dun lik th subject she's teaching,
i absolutely lik her.
at least,
she gives me a comfortable feeling and makes me trust her more.
neverless,
i still need to know her deep enough to really give her a full judge.
now it's 11.08, and you gotta say bye to me.

2009-06-30T19:01:00.002+08:00

woots.. so long nv post ler...
yesterday start of sch,
n cos of the H1N1 thingy the side n back gates were closed as we have 2 take temperature right at the main gate.
sch so kiasu hor...
LOLS...
yesterday was sort of boring...
but after 1 month at last can see frens in sch quite gd lar..
after sch was going home with geraldine sim,
and she asked if wan go west mall with ler yee so i said yes lor...
from interchange 2 westmall there saw charmaine!
so long nv see her le...
lik from new yr celebration til now?
miss her loads sia...
of cos miss every1 lar...
but i see her den i was lik there waving lik mad women 2 her,
den she was thinking y this mad women waving sia...
LOL...
den after that she realised that it's me...
but we didn't talk much...
gotta go duh...
den when i reached home smsed her lurh...
haha=)
fun day coming!!!
25 JULY 2009 man!
all must go uh...
wish shi hwee's band tio cancelled?
so that she can go lurh...
it's lik a big gathering for us all,
great chance 2 ply lik siao lik th past!
so looking forward..

got new timetable yesterday,
swimming lesson's gotta start next week..
our's on thursday 3 periods leh...
imagine...
1.30hours inside th pool...
LOL ok ba...
mixed feelings bout pool...
since it's lik weird feeling...
go with frens still ok wor...
but class...
dunno...
let's see how it goes ba...
seldom update blog ler=.=
will see how=)
try get back my interest XD
since,
blog is one of th way of letting frens know how am i lately,
and how i'm feeling...
but, may open a private blog.
lik this will be on but also th private blog.
taking in opinions lar.
cos it's lik not gd 2 post those emo things up here...
den lik so =.=
depends lor..
after some time den see how.
but if i open private blog it'll b completely private?
lik only myself can ge 2 read it...
cos,
i dunno...
lik my temper isn't lik normal ppl...
as frens know de..
some of u still know when i emo lar..
but sometimes really cannot see.
since ppl emo will get agitated,
but my emo is um... cool?
=.=
mood swings are scary...
i know that.
so,
if i mood swing dunno is better?
somehow ba...
hmm...
mayb getting back th habit of writing poems...
very long nv do le.
but this time i've got a notebook from sch,
i think i'll use it 2 record those which i've wrote.
scarely next time i cant b interior designer,
i can be a writer,
have my own book of poems i've collected?
aiya that's a long way...
wow.. today's post is naggy...
wont talk le lar..
will come back soon i promise=)
good luck in studies n sch,
dun giv up man frens...
we have long way ahead,
but time passes so quickly that we must treasure it.

i think i should tell that to myself=.=
i'm the 1 who's not listening n still slacking...
kaes really,
byes. =DD

2009-06-08T15:07:00.001+08:00

jus some rdm photos... very sian bo mood post ps

2009-05-24T11:41:00.002+08:00

wooooo XD
shiok seh...
yesterday was i think my craziest day ever and it was so great!
i didn't expect so much people 2 be at church!
the concert was so enjoying,
the songs rocks!
if i didn't know,
i wouldn't treat it as a christian band at all!
it was like the songs was so great.
if i didn't went yesterday,
i would have regretted it.
during the songs at 1st i wasn't so enthu,
but after the start the atmosphere was there n 1st time i'm jumping along 2 the song=)
wished i could go today too...
but morning wasn't a good start la...
dun wanna talk bout it anymore...
but i would really wish,
that all my frens can be brought 2 church with me the next time.
haha=)
kaes end here ba...

2009-05-22T18:22:00.002+08:00

ok... jus ignore the previous post kaes=)
i mood swing la..
cos sort of qurrel with my bro den my mood this few days ready not gd what...
so lik really need find somewhere 2 let the anger out...
ok jus treat that post as invisible=)

kaes now here 2 show you guys a video,
this song really nice la...
you listen can le..
cos u know i s.h.e freak so cant blame me...
but the writer for this song is lik for me,
so fabulous...
the melody quite nice lor...

2009-05-22T16:38:00.003+08:00

haiz...
life sucks...

what am i worth in this world?
your what?
you think i what sia..
you never know what i want,
what i need,
what i like,
what i hate,
what i feel.
you never listen 2 what i said.
what course do i want 2 do in the future?
which job do i wanna be when i grow up?
how am i feeling when i've gotten my results?
what have i planned and how i wanna achieve it?
the above questions i dun think u know any of the answers.

do you know that i'm very sad after knowing my maths marks?
do you know that i worked for the exam?
do you know that i take exams seriously?
do you know that it's my first time failing maths exam and gotten such a low score that i myself couldn't believe i've gotten?
do you know that only one person realised that i'm sad? (thks loads 2 vera)
do you know that i'm very stressed before exam,
during exam,
and even after exam?
do you know that i dun even feel like going 2 sch now,
going home?

you never knew me...
or maybe i'm too hard to understand...
or should i put it as the whole world cant see me too...
i'm working for what?

marks,
is not the end of the world...
but,
this time it's really dissapointing and frustrating...
really feel like going 2 the seaside now...
look at the sky,
look at the sea.
you'll realise that it's a great combination...
and i love sunrise ad sunset...
that's why i've gotten dawn as my english name...
because to me nothing in the world is more beautiful than dawn...
hey the dawn i saying is sunrise ok...
mai say i zilian =.=

whatever...
said all that i wanna say,
now feeling better...
was sad,angry n tearing all the way yesterday n today...
but,
you'll always only get 2 see 1 side of me...
unless you notices me.

2009-05-17T17:16:00.003+08:00

kaes jus some rdm photos kaes...
ok.. every1 waiting for this post huh...
so here's the post...
23-24 red rain concert!
even though those i've invited all cant go,
but nvm...
i'm sure go there i also can enjoy myself as much=)
cos i have frens there too=)
lols..
hey but i'm sure looking forward kaes...
den ater the concert maybe i hang around alittle,
but i think i won't stay til too late.
cos lik 4plus am we going 2 do the dumplings,
and i'm helping out!
last year btps thought few of us how 2 do,
and i go learn for fun only...
but it's really fun.
so last year i got help out,
but i wrap the easier kind.
this year would wish 2 go for the harder 1=)
and i help out so that gran could rest more la..
cos she also counted old le. 77 le leh..
so let her rest more lor..

2009-05-05T17:34:00.002+08:00

haha.. 2day in sch quite fun lar...
morning is okok only, so skip it lar...
den recess go see ms koh, den those who fail have chance 2 retest lar...
den i ask her, if i wan re-take the timing can?
she say can wor...
so mayb 2moro i'm gonna run, try improve my timing...
cos my timing 16mins27sec,
but i think can better ba...
must aim for the best rite?
btps motto: strive for the best.
hahas...
actually is sort of training of stamina also lar...
cos netball also need wait til june holidays den will resume training ba...
den i dun wish stamina 2 drop.
i wish next year my timing can like 14mins lik that,
if can faster better=)
but abit hard lar...
the thing is,keep getting 5marks and den gold comtinously can ler...
i'm not ready 2 get below gold.. lols...
no lar... jus my high expectations...
hmmm ok.. dun talk bout that ler.
after recess chinese lesson,
mdm toh nv come so my maths teacher came 2 relieve.
den we all talking...
den after that is cme,
the same usual thing so i won't talk bout it...
ve ms choong used it 2 sort of revise science,
and i'm feeling dam sleepy after hearing her talk so fell asleep...
den is lik OMG... i thnk i almost really fall dead asleep..
heng nv or i'd die...
den maths,
mr derek gave us mid year papr 2 do,
but of cause i'm still feeling sleepy...
but after that dun dare sleep in his class so did afew questions,
den he sort of revise with us la...
den when revising is lik so dam boring,
so i was taking the debat card that i bought for debate,
but debate finished ler...
but i not supposed 2 waste paper ok...
but dam sian so took it and started writing hello byebye in different ink on it.
den i go draw on it,
after awhile carmen was asking me what i doing den she says she wanna write...
so give her write lor..
at 1st she wrote carmenlee,
very nicely de la...
den after that is i think draw abit,
den go write wenhui...
but is still ok, cause actually quite nice lar...
den dunno when she go add love sihan...
den i was there..
sort of smiling ba...
my temper very good ok...
den we was joking there,
she also got write timothy lar...
den joke joke joke we say til the chinese writing also sihan,
den decided 2 see if xinyu gets the trick anot.
den i go call her she see ler,
den she suddenly think of something...
den she told me morning she saw him at the bus stop,
is lik my house here de bus stop that 7-11 one u know?
den she say he looks ok quite shuai lar...
den carmen go say wa someone say he shuai leh...
den i was so...
face i think abit red ba..
i cannot see so nvm...
but face red also cos i laugh too much lor...
really wish 2 see him...
haiz...
miss him leh...
but, nvm lar...
got fate we'll meet someday.
lols...
heard that he's still the same...
XINYU~ why ur luck so good de...
lols... ok i siao liao...
kaes la... i mai ki siao...
i go bath, rest awhile night need study ler!
hey those whom exams are nearing or already in it,
good luck and study hard=)
but remember dun too stress kaes?
must take care of your body also hor...
those without exams also must study hor..
dun slack slack..
but must know when it's time 2 study must study,
time 2 play must play!
...
i should be saying 2 myself ba...
ok i mai siao here liao...
bbyes guys n ladies=)
<3333 always...
ewww so rouma

2009-05-05T17:30:00.001+08:00

lols... that's my gran's b'dae cake n vera...
vera fell down yesterday during nafa,
and she so got sportsmanship still finish the run sia...
but in the end still fail... lols...
anw nvm, vera jiayous! =)

2009-05-03T15:46:00.001+08:00

2009-05-02T12:52:00.004+08:00

2009-04-27T21:50:00.003+08:00

you know what?
i have a feeling we're drifting apart...
not only those few,
but with quite alot...
i realised what the seniors said was quite true...
'when you get 2 sec, you'll eventually lose contact with ur pri sch frens n continue with ur life.'
but, i wont want tat 2 happen...
it's great being with my frens,
n i'll never forget those times we had together once.
but it is quite obvious that we're drifting apart,
n i couldn't think of what to do.
then,
sec de also few drifting apart=.=
we jus know for afew months,
but i think for those reasons we may be back 2 strangers agn.
but those reasons is still what we think,
what we heard,
and may not be the truth.
but,
in life how many things are really truth?
how many chances are given for them 2 say the truth?
i really don't know...
god,
help me...
i'm really confused.
there's so many things in my mind...
i miss him,
i miss those pri sch frens which i think we lost contact for quite sometimes already...
if there's a choice for me,
i wouldn't know what to choose now too.
to go sec or not,
i'm really confused.
alot things in pri sch makes me feel like staying,
n be there forever.
but things in sec is pushing me on.
tiring.
i'm really tired.
life is so tiring...

anw carmen,
no need worry about my troubles lar...
they will be solved sooner or later =)

2009-04-15T19:14:00.002+08:00

ok... wanted to rip the photo from class blog but not sucessful...
trying next time ba... class blog quite dead now=.=
anw, how many teachers left us le?
mrs lee, give birth. wish her son to be chubby and cute=) i wanna see!
mr tan, NS man. good luck, mr tan..
mr dorville, singapore poly. have fun there!
so yup i think those..
but they're all fun teachers after all...
n quite miss them lor...
hmm...
friday should be going for CG!
haha XD
cool man...

2009-04-11T16:57:00.002+08:00

hey!!!
yesterday was incredibly fun!!!
i went to my bro's church with him,
and knew alot new frens!
i dun remember some's name,
and it's so sorry...
cause had alot to remember...
the first one i knew,
priscilla tan=)
she's so fun,
had great time hanging out with her.
there's this little girl name joelle,
she's in the basketball team!
and she's p5,
but cant see that she's from basketball other than her skin colour...
my bro's church heart of god church,
is so excellent!
the design there qute modern also.
their pastor,
pastor how, is very funny too=)
from the way he talks can see that he's humourous and a friendly person=)
anw it is jus great fun lor..
and wish 2 persuade my mum 2 let me go church,
den it is fabulous!

2009-04-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

lols.. ripped this from xinyu's blog...

that's mr tan^^

our ex-maths teacher...

now i think he's in army le...

quite miss him leh...

den english teach going soon too.

mr dorville* dunno how spell sry....

gonna miss u too...

u're fun man...

2009-04-01T17:15:00.002+08:00

hehe... after sch my day was fun...
but i'm poke cause of that=.=
nonono,
i didn't go 2 archade ok...
i did ban myself...
went wif px and geraldine 2 mac for lunch,
n guess who we meet?
cheryl!
haha...
n den we chat n chat til she had 2 go,
n have a feeling haven finish chatting u know...
is like so much 2 say lar...
lols...
but cause having so much b'daes around,
i'm getting myself poke almost every week...
sunday my real bro b'dae liao...
4/5...
lawls...
hmm...
another family problem=.=
only carmen know ba?
haha...
this 1 must blame the ecomonics...
haiz...
wish this get settled soon...
haiz i go le lurh..
bbyes=)

2009-03-29T11:41:00.002+08:00

this post is purely replies 2 taggs kaes.

-carmen
i'll try...
cause it is hard 2 solve all the problems that is impossible.
there is alot of problems that no one knows...
and my family problem is also known to you only.
so the stress from all the problems is really hard 2 cope.
but, i'll try not 2 do it.

-elmo
diaos...
copied?
haiz...
you're not me you won't know the things i'm going through.

-all who tagged
you guys cant understand...
alot of problems are not told to you cause i know that things said is equal to saying nothing.
those stress from the problems is real big.
really very hard 2 make it understood.

2009-03-28T19:10:00.002+08:00

i know we're drifting apart,
and i think u know who you are.
not to my primary dearies,
so no need 2 worry.
i dun wish to see the drift,
but i do know certain reasons.
not all,
but some.
do not approach me,
cause i dun know how 2 reply it.
i wish 2 close up the gap,
or maybe we'll spilt into 2 groups after all.
still,
that's not what i wish for.

2009-03-28T19:00:00.002+08:00

i think i'll settle on this skin 1st,
dam moodless 2 do anything now=.=
this skin is pretty simple but better than the previous 1 which is a mess by me.
went 2 m'sia today,
but of cause i didn't get my hair cut agn=.=
maybe the next time go i'll...
bought 4sets of clips,
cause buy3get1free=.=
den i hate lossing those clips,
hair dam messy can=.=
my current hair i'm satisfied,
but hate tying up.
cos u know my hair those sides not the length 2 tie what...
i wish 2 cut til a length which can dun tie den go sch,
but dunno effect nice anot.
wait next time den see ba...

Meiling,
great that you've made the thing clear.
dun wish 2 see u doing that agn.
do you know that it hurts me?
even though we've not known for very long,
but our relationship is already close.
promise me never be that foolish agn will you?
but i cant give you my promise though,
cause mine will not happen in the recent future.
it will only happen if the stress is unbearable.
and,
if i wanna die i'll make sure it is real death.
so that'll be somehow quite hard huh?
so no need worry for the near future...
you too,
dun stress urself up.
try lowering your targets.

2009-03-27T20:41:00.002+08:00

stupid=.= wanted 2 go 2 blogs,
but tried alot of blogs and i couldn't go=.=
computer got problem or whatsoever la...
haiz...
quite emo this few days=.=
i wan die lar=.=
but,
if i really wan die,
i will make sure i 100% die.
cannot even have 1% of survival rate.
cause with that 1% will cause my parent's pocket a big hole,
so ya...
haiz...
hack care lar=.=
today sports day,
but at the stadium dam boring=.=
den still complusory 2 go lor...
but my house jaguar won,
just cause there are good runners la...
i join the court games netball n basketball,
but like useless since they never even mentioned it lor...
dunno join for what=.=
i think next year i joining running events,
but i dun think i will join 100m and 200m run,
cause the gun bang dam loud can=.=
i can stun there for quite some time ba....
so aiya next year den decide lor...

i was wondering if i jump what will your responds be,
but actually i knew the answer long ago.
you will never care bout how i felt,
but i just couldn't forget your presence.
you should be forgotten,
but the memories of you is clearer than yesterday.
i really wish you never existed,
so i won't be suffering today.
i couldn't be like others cut themselves,
since i'm afraid of the pain.
the only thing i can do is to jump,
since jumping i can close my eyes and forget everthing.
but is it worth jumpig for your sake?
yes to me but maybe no to others.
i really miss you alot everyday,
wishing to see you every second is what i want.
i've tried to persuade myself that having you is impossible,
but i still can't stop dreaming about it.
never know when will this dream stop,
but wish it will soon.
i really hate the stress the world is giving me,
and u're not the one by my side helping me.
without friends i would leave this world long ago,
but under the current stress,
i may really want 2 go soon.
i don't know how long can i still take this stress,
but i really won't want to hurt people who care for me.
if i want to go,
wish god takes my life away.
i won't want 2 hurt myself without going away,
and cause my parents to suffer with me.
1 person suffering is enough.

2009-03-22T13:21:00.002+08:00

blog under going renovation,
so pls bear with it now.
spent a long time but the blog wont get well..
lols..
so ya,
holiday hw i did science only,
the worksheets will chiong tonite.
didn't have an idea how 2 do geo n history so maybe going sch 2 ask?
lols...
k i needa help bro train his acc in maple=.=
so ya i going...
bbyes guys ~

2009-03-12T19:43:00.002+08:00

today the ending part of netball is dam tiring,
if u dun believe tell me and i'll let u try it...
can die 1 ok...
plus we 1st time do leh...
den went home,
but lucky bus came quite fast lar...
poke le=(((
so poor thing go out only can window shopping...
need stop myself from eating=.=
gonna become a fat pig liao...
lols...
anw today was i think the most tired day in sec sch netball training,
and also the most sian day..
mr tan leaving=(
i'll miss him ok...
hmm...
ending now,
short post nia la...
bbyes

2009-03-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

so how's this blogskin?
really cannot find new and nice 1,
so since didn't use this b4 i try out lor...
i know not really nice lar...
cause the pic that person deleted den i go download le den re uploaded it so...
it isn't very nice lor...
bear with me ok...
still trying 2 make a blogskin of my own,
if suceed will be great=)
so today went 2 st luke hospital...
n time post now,
gtg... maybe friday or nxt week den post liao...
k cya guys... have a great weekends=)

2009-03-06T20:34:00.002+08:00

haha...
those taggs were really great...
today was abit hyper out with xinyu,
and if u're lucky,
going out with me will let u see another face of me...
the hyper part..
went 2 archade,
and spent all my savings there,
curse myself-.-
must set a ban from archade until i save $50 for my future cam at least...
gotta but 3 presents for april...
going poke agn... lols...

anw 2 frens,
thanks for standing by my side when i need you...
laopos/sisters,
jieqi, liyan, joycelyn
i really thank you guys...
you guys made me grow alot,
and my life became colourful because of you too.
charmaine and theresa my daughters,
had a wonderful time with you two.
can laugh til siao cause sometimes you guys were crazy...
but makes my life more colourful too...
other brother sisters in btps like shihwee,junliang and so on...
having you guys is a great thing...
junliang,
even though we talk always like got link 2 some qurrellings*,
but i think u're the only 1 who qurrels with me longest even...
lols...
others i dunno what 2 say,
cause some not really dam dam dam close,
but still thanks.
btps frens, <33333333 u guys 4ever kaes...
must keep in touch...
i'll miss u guys...
and jiapei,
i'm ur longest frenship in sch rite?
haha...
fun together,
we pon classes and so on together,
so much fun.
wuzong,
sometimes u're quite irritating,
but u're fun after all...

change 2 dunearn new frens and few old ones,
shihwee n junliang i dun need say le ba...
vera,xinyu,px,meiling and carmen,
the closest ones..
it looks like we're into 2 groups,
vera,xinyu and px 1 group which is closer,
me, meiling and carmen closer.
but xinyu is the 1st fren,
and of cos she talked 2 me 1st...
but that time cos she too hyper,
so i abit like not used yet lar...
very least frens hyper k...
but after that got used ler...
den vera,
i rmb orentation night she talked 2 me too...
and xinyu and her have much more things 2 talk about,
compared 2 me who will jus reply 1 or 2 words after they said 1sentence or so...
lols...
meiling talked 2 me too during orentation night,
but i think not counted as talk ba...
cause that time i think u see me so lonely 1person in class rite?
so said hi 2 me...
but i replied hi back only... lols...
carmen was after that i forgotten which occasion den slowly gotten closer de...
laughing now,
as i still rmb my 1st impression of carmen is tat she's an ah lian...
lols...
but of cos after getting known 2 her,
knew that she isn't...
maybe cos of her hair or whatever ba...
which gave me that impression...
but,
now i think among all i'm closest to carmen?
maybe cause we face the same problem,
which got us close.
carmen,
BFF <3
but of cos i dunno why i dun have the courage 2 talk about it face 2 face,
only when it's at blog or sms den i will talk loads...
i'm a funny person...
meiling,
i think u 2nd closest 2 me???
maybe cause we hang out more often,
plus we're sitting next 2 each other...
ur enthu towards studies really impressed me,
and i know i'll never be like you.
not much people can manage 2 have such enthu towards studies,
u're the rare one...
really wish you can excel in your grades,
and get closer towards your dream.
xinyu,vera and peixuan,
i dunno who come 1st or whatever la...
but all of you are like... i dunno how 2 say...
maybe u guys mix 2gether cause of some part of character same or smthing like that...
xinyu,
thanks for being the 1st one 2 talk 2 me...
lols...
anw,
i know u'll always be the unique one... lols...
vera,
mayb u should try another hairstyle?
lols...
anw thanks 4 the encouragement u gave me...
=)
px...
i dun think i need say anything ba...
lols...

now,
i can say that i've strained my leg muscles,
and my hand hates me this few days...
leg muscles cos wed n thurs got netball training and did alot of exercise,
den 2day still got pe...
3days of exercise...
u think leh...
hand i dunno y i cant seems 2 control the ball,
like ply worse than p5 or 6 that time...
and that is the last thing i wanted 2 see...
my skills failing...
wish it could improve ba...
anw wish that this science test can pass,
and my 2nd maths test passed!
but mr tan will be going away soon,
and i think i would miss him...
even though i hate him at the start,
but eventually liked him...
not that kinda like kaes...
he's quite a nice person actually...
ok gtg le... bbyes...

2009-03-04T18:53:00.003+08:00

haha...
test 2moro,
and still got netball 2moro,
even though we got 1 today ...
ms rine* say monday and thursday training starting from next week,
cause coach wednesday can only teach from 3-5,
den tuesday she not free...
coach must be dam busy...
i feel she's quite a nice person,
and in fact to me,
she quite chio leh..
is like she shine with her tann...
haiz...
dam stressed,
depressed,
and i dunno what...
mixed feelings...
5.1-5.3 not done,
maths test and eng test 2moro,
science test on friday,
training 2moro...
next week got test agn,
and i really feel like dieing...
you know,
if i can,
i wish 2 go out on the road,
even better is that a truck comes...
die,
or maybe let me have a long long sleep.
a sleep which is very long...
long enough 2 let me forget everything...
parents are unfair...
they always say we dun think in their way,
but do they think in our way?
they always think that they are right,
never taking our opinion...
we have our own ideas,
our own dreams,
our own thinking,
our own ways...
they dun even let us do what we want,
never give us the freedom and trust we need from them,
never supporting us...
i dun take other parents,
i take my own mum...
even though sometimes she's good 2 me,
but she dun give me trust,
not really freedom,
and never supporting me.
see that time when choosing cca?
i wanted 2 try basketball,
and she says no...
i said netball and she said yes at that time..
now when i say about netball,
she is like that is not important,
concentrate on your studies...
she knows that i lik art,
and she just dun care...
when i do art she'll ask got hw anot,
and is like the art is not a subject.
never thought of my feelings,
never..
i like sports, things consist of art,
but she dissaprove it all.
sports can do harm 2 me?
art can do harm?
it is also part of life.
what she thinks is,
hw, main subjects are important.
den all the small subjects are nothing...
her hopes are always set on me,
but always doting on my brother.
like him so much,
go put ur hopes on him la...
why even bother 2 put hopes on me when you know i'm not going fufil it,
and i hate those things...
i'm not interested,
not a little bit.
always expect me 2 do what u want,
but never doing what i want.
selfish.
humans are unexpected selfish...
me myself is also selfish...
everyone is selfish...
the world is unpredictable...
because of parents,
they will make people lose hope in people.
they will make childs get closer 2 their frens,
cause at least the frens understand and support more.
who were the ones who stand by our side when we needed help most?
frens.
they were the ones who supported us,
not parents.
if i can fufil my dreams,
i will thank my frens.
they are my pillar of strength,
and of cause those teachers who i like,
cause they helped me 2 learn things,
more thngs than my parents cn make me realise from life.

i can tell you, my life will end earlier than anyone expected...
that is what i predict,
since i hate the world so much.
but, if i die,
i will always remember my frens.
cause if i miss anything from this world, it is you guys.
you guys make me feel my worth,
my presence in world.
i feel great with all of u.

2009-03-02T16:06:00.002+08:00

ok... today in sch still went well,
just that was dam sian and in lesson i was folding hearts and listening 2 cher...
science lesson was so bored,
i was going 2 fall asleep liao can...
but was folding hearts and didn't want 2 miss anything,
so tried 2 keep myself awake...
dunno is tues,wed or thurs got training,
need bring shirt everyday sia...
den i not only bring shirt,
still got deoderant, and towel...
not quite heavy la.. but take up space ma...
after sch end go home myself,
den netball senior crystal sec 2 de she and frens on bus,
there talking and joking...
so dam funny lor...
i was putting on earpiece at 1st,
but after that just take off and listen...
they were talking there den suddenly dunno who say something like
" junior here dun so bad la"
something there la...
cause i was putting inner earpiece but not dam loud,
so can hear abit only....
den after that i feel funny,
so take off 1side...
den crystal say she my junior leh...
den reach her hand out,
call me shake.
den shake le the other senior gal de was like ur junior a...
den the boy luaghing there...
den crystal call me say i from netball de..
haha...
den after that dunno what they joking about agn...
so i take earpiece down and hear lor...
but their chinese i can say i really not very good lor...
sorry for saying bad bout u seniors...

anw,
i dunno forget him le ma...
but i think not...
some sort of missing him,
but dunno y like abit scared of seeing him,
while i wish 2 see him...
what stupid feeling is that?
i dunno...
really emo person...
haiz...
finished geography email,
and so sian now...
use computer also will sian...
what person am i sia...
i tink i'm the kind if sleep 24hrs dun wake up the most happy that kind ba...
maybe,
tired of life...
life...
what is it?
eat, sleep, bath, watch tv, ply computer, go sch, go out, alot more.
but, why i have no interest in them all?
i dunno why...
i'm like someone who only has around 4 kinds of mood?
happy(seldom), sad, emo and angry.
happy, is sure seldom de...
den what bout the other 3?
which is the most?
i think emo ba...
anw,
so weird-.-
i'm talking 2 myself in the whole post-.-
nvm i'm going now so,
bbyes=)

2009-03-01T18:01:00.003+08:00

one thing, this is not zilian ok...

and, ya i look so idiot in the pictures,

so i'm not suitable to take photos of myself...

look dam weird kaes...

just photos taken after i finish cuting my hair and reached home...

you see like that my fringe like quite long,

actually it is quite short le...

the shortest part almost reach the tip of my nose liao...

i think after i got long hair never cut til so short liao?

dunno why i go ask the auntie 2 cut so short sia...

now overall hair quite short,

dam hard 2 tie them up.

i tie them up den the side those short ones keep dropping down,

like dam messy...

i feel dam funny now,

haven get used 2 my fringe being so short lurh...

hmmm....

that's all i wanna post,

ok so ya,

bbyes guys...

2009-02-27T14:21:00.002+08:00

ok.. at last done-.-
i big news 1st...
i flunk my science test!
totally flunked it!!!
10/30-.-
how good am i?
2nd time flunking science test!!!
only subject which fails me!!!
gave up hope on it-.-
k dun talk bout it le...
feel like tearing the paper-.-
anw,
netball rocks!
coach said can call her sharon or coach,
both can.
but i like coach better XD
i din't wear PE that day cause didn't know got training...
den they run and all those i couldn't do=(((
but i got 2 do shooting,
but i like no potential to shoot-.-
den after 5 stayed back play shooting awhile,
den got hit by a ball right on my head in the middle while picking up ball-.-
but lucky i got hit often, used 2 it...
i was like standing at the side while they did running,
and i was so desperate cause i wanna run too=(((
dunno what 2 say,
just tell you guys,
i'm quite badly sick...
whole week came home in rain,
except for today...
monday come home catch a cold le...
den tuesday come home got sore throat...
wednesday headache added in,
yesterday lucky no more illness...
but still,
is sick...
sorry liyan for rejecting you,
wanted 2 go but real sick lurh...
psps...
hmm dunno what 2 say ler,
so i'm going =P
cya guys...

2009-02-27T13:41:00.002+08:00

ok doing 2 quiz since they tagged me 2 do it...
the top 1 is carmen lee's while bottom is shi hwee de...

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
- dunno(?) i didn't get kissed or kiss b4-.-
2. How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
- Tired,wants 2 pon sch
3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
- Carmen & Meiling :)
4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- Nope.
5. Would you ever donate blood?
- i dun think i can donate blood, i'm in need of blood too?
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
- Nope, only gan brothers?
7. Do you want someone dead?
- No. Why would I want someone to be dead? Unless someone makes me crazy...
8. What does your last text message says?
- A person saying dun forget 2 do the scripts on volcano?
9. What are u thinking right now?
- I'm thinking of finishing this quiz as soon as possible so that I can do the other quiz and head 2 things i need to do.
10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
- Yes..
11. What is the time you went to bed last night?
- 12pm plus
12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
- My aunt bought it for me.. i think at bukit batok?
13. Is someone on ur mind right now?
- Yes.
14. Who was the last person who texted you?
- um... meiling?
Tag 10 people to do this quiz.
1) Liyan
2) jieqi
3) joycelyn
4) Meiling
5) carmen
6) xinyu
7) shi hwee
8) jun liang
9) peixuan
10) Yeong Zhun

15. Who is 2 having a relationship with?
- She's single.
16. Is 3 a male or female?
- Female.
17. If 7 and 10 get tgt,would it be a good thing?
- No i dun think they know each other?
18.What is 1 studying about?
- Idk :X
19. When was the last time u had a chat with them?
- Who are you refering to? -.-
20. Is 4 single?
- Yes.
21. Say something about number 2?
- my twin sister and my new frens says that she quite chio?
22. What do you think about 3 & 6 being tgt?
- They ain't lesbians and they do not know each other?
23. Describe 9?
- dunno what 2 say-.-
24. What will you do if 6 n 7 fight?
- not sure.. mayb they know each other but not close?
25. Do you like 8?
- Yes,cause he's my gan brother?
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
A-angel
B-brendan
C-carmen,charmaine
D-daniel ng/wu?
E-eileen
F-Frida
G-guoyi
H-hengyi
I-isabel
J-joycelyn,jieqi,junliang,jiapei
K-kenlynn
L-liyan
M-meiling
N-nurul
O-?
P-peixuan,
Q-qi jin
R-rano
S-shihwee
T-theresa
U-?
V-vera
W-wenhui(see)
X-xinyu
Y-yeongzhun
Z-zoey

2.can R and S be together in BGR?
- they know each other but i dun think so?
3.how is L related to you?
- my sister.XD
4.Does Y know Z?
nope
5.if C betrays you, will you kill him/her?
dun think so=) i very good kaes...
6.if K steals your boyfriend,what will you do?
- dunno? dun think that we have the same taste...
7.what if L tells you he/she has a crush on you?
- ok? she's my laopo plus sister why not?
8.will you and M get into a fight?
- maybe, maybe not? how would i know the future?-.-
9.who does K have a crush on?
- dunno.. i'm not damm close 2 her..
10. if W calls you a b!tch, what will you do?
- scold her back? i dont know...
11.what is the relationship between you and E?
- frens?
12.who does Z like?
- dunno..
13.who is I's best friend?
- Jiale? i think so ba..
14.what colour does Y like?
- maybe red since he likes elmo alot?
15.where does F live?
- somewhere near toh yi drive? think so...
16.did you and c had a fight before?
- both nope...
17.who's H's best friend?
- dunno now...
18.what can you say about X?
- hyper active and talks alot?
19.what if J tells you that he/she has a crush on you?
jieqi-my laopo! hahas..
joycelyn-my laopo too! lawls...
junliang- not possible??? my brother leh...
jiapei- not a lesbian...
20.tag 10 ppl to do this quiz!
jieqi,liyan,joycelyn,carmen,meiling,xinyu,junliang,yeongzhun,peixuan,shihwee and whoever who wants to do XDXDXD~

2009-02-23T19:27:00.003+08:00

ok... advertising for bro's sch clementi town home-coming day,
this coming sat 18 april, 10am - 5 pm,
of cause u no need go whole day...
venue is of cause clementi town sec,
10 clementi ave 3
singapore 129904
this 'ticket' cost $10,
it is like a open house la...
got 10 - $1 coupons,
1 free Kbox 1-for1 side order, this ticket valid til 31may 2009,
and 1 $5 off for purchases above $25 at botak jones, valid til 16 june 2009...
this 2 tickets are shown on top, but not very clear la... anyhow take de...
wanted 2 scan the thing out, but printer got problem lur...
the 2 pictures below is the ticket lar...
pls help if got $ and is free...
buy from me, but $ collected is bro sch de lar-.-...
you can contact me and bring along $10...
i'll bring the tickets along...

pictures below is the volcano for project work, and houses i made myself la...

the pictures sucks i know...

my photography sucks to the core now...

poor phone suffering...

the house look more like a temple la...

u guys must b laughing.. lawls..

ok la but spent 1day finishing up,

fastest in the class i think...

we finished this project le...

see the pictures lor...

2009-02-23T18:24:00.002+08:00

u know what?
just now when having science lesson,
raining heavily...
den walk 2 bus stop in the rain with carmen,
while walking,
dunno y abit emo lar...
maybe cause scared that flunk the test 2moro ba...
science test... i think our last subject tested...
but week10 got test agn-.-
u know when i emo i though of what?
either should let me fail psle stay in primary sch,
or let the thunder kill me just now...
but after that rmb,
i said should live our life 2 the fullest huh...
1st time sucide thoughts in my mind...
really...
too stressed up lurh..
u guys know lar...
i dun wanna fail any subjects,
even though sometimes i say nvm...
and, science is the only subject which i've failed once...
and it is the subject i hate most for exam...
after failing the test i study like siao...
study b'cos not wanting 2 fail during psle....
but 2moro's test got a feeling will flunk it...
dun wanna flunk it!!!!!
haiz...
DUN CARE DUN WANNA CARE HACK CARE...
none of my business
i'm tired...
tired of studying,
tired of sch,
tired of my life...
it's so boring,
so ...
i'm at a loss of words...
just wanna sleep,
sleep for my whole life...
engineer, designer....
that's what i wanna b next time...
but who can say that i can get 2 be it?
i sucks in those things...
just the same old thing...
i'm TIRED OF LIVING...
living in my own world is most suitable for me...
but the world doesn't allow me 2 do so...
the world ppl cares,
teaches,
naggs,
fights...
everything...
and i dun wanna do any of it...
cause i'm starting 2 feel that life is colourless...
cause i'm lazy and doesn't have the strength 2 colour the colours up...

2009-02-20T18:07:00.002+08:00

using this skin agn,
cos the previous 1 is ugly alright...
meaning not the pon n zi de...
is i changed another 1...
suddenly feel like using this bck,
so got it bck here...
song changed too,

梁静如‘s

可惜不是你

it's sad, emo,
but real nice...
maybe cos abit miss him le ba...
and,
planning 2 go see s.h.e at east point mall 2moro!!!
simei leh...
but 2 see them i'll go!
wish can lurh... dunno yet lar...
but really really wish 2 see them lurh...
did geography project on volcano just now,
our volcano i think quite perfect leh...
not perfect la..
is quite nice ok...
and i made house,
the house body is actually clay made into cube shape lar...
so the house i think shape very different,
since is i make de-.-
plus the house dam small compared 2 volcano,
so i think cannot make ppl or must be dam dam small liao...
hmmm...
dunno what 2 say ler...
i go bath=)
cya guys

2009-02-19T19:29:00.003+08:00

hey joey wan find trouble ,pls leave ur sch i go down find u settle
mai come my sis de blog di siao
chi bao tai xian kong jiu lai kao bei,ni yi wei zhe shi you le chang ar
come di siao agn la!!! dont let mi find out u from wat sch .
di siao agn better watch out
pls remember tat this not ur blog pls respect the owner
u wan come di siao agn if u wan pay the consequences
wencong

2009-02-17T18:16:00.003+08:00

Be it love or not,

we tried our fullest.

Even though i miss you,

i'm sure that i've tried my best.

I think that you still love her,

but did you try chasing her back?

I love you,

so i want you to be happy.

With a smile on your face,

my worries are replaced by smiles.

I don't have the chance to meet you,

and i think that our fate is ending.

Trying hard to forget you,

but my brain just won't erase you away.

If i have a choice,

i'll still choose to love you,

but maybe earlier.

Have no choice,

but to let time wash you away.

Since i'm bought to here this state,

i have no regrets for the choice i've made.

Just wanna tell you,

i'm waiting for you here.