Everything Is Gone, I'm Alone.

.Tuesday, September 30, 2008 ' 8:37 PM

for me,
towards the things happening recently,
i dun feel good...
and,
i think partly the reason is that i feel that i'm changing also...
or maybe from my view,
everyone is changing..
everyone...
you don't have 2 ask me are you included...
because,
as i said,
EVERYONE has changed from my view...
but i cant say out the reasons...
just my feelings...
maybe,
i'm thinking too much...
too much...
but i'm really tired after all this...
i really want a rest...
how i wish everything was a dream...
now,
i'm starting to regret...
maybe after all,
i shouldn't be in this school in the first place...
being in this school was a wrong start after all...
and,
how i wish i was in wisdom when in primary 5...
if i was in primary5,
everything could be different...
mayb i was happier after all...
mayb every1 was happier tat way...
mayb,
if we all go our own way we've could enjoyed our last month in school...
but,
fate let us all be together...
and,
it is now plying with us...
seprating us...
i'm really really very tired...
how i wish the world could stop turning for a century...

Ended her day....

. ' 8:29 PM

almost everyday there is something happening within us...
this is a fact which all of us cant denied...
a fact will always be a fact...
and another fact is that,
no matter we patch up after our fights anot,
we'll all never be like before again...
we'll all never be as clos as before again..
and,
following the 1st fight,
there will be lots n lots of fight following behind...
and,
in the end we'll never patch up again cause we all are tired...
or, we feel that there is no meaning in a friendship like this anymore...
a friendship which cosist of more fights than happiness is not worth us saving it...
but, i'm very sure that,
we'll all part 1 day...
part as in never back together again...
everyone...
never as before...
never together as a family tree anymore...
but,
i dunno when will the day come...
but,
my feeling is that the day is coming near...
and,
it's not a gd feeling...
a feeling of something gonna happen...
some thing which is BIG is going 2 happen on us...
but,
i can never predict it...
the only thing that i can wish is,
everyone be happy forever...

Ended her day....

. ' 1:58 PM

fight fight fight..
everything considers it...
cant u guys jus stop fighting 1 day???
watever...
i dun wanna care anymore...
u guys wan fight fight all u wan...
dun wan use my life 2 keep fighting wif u guys...
i'm tired...
really really tired...
tired of my life...
how i wish i wasn't in this world...
wasn't in this planet...
wasn't in this country...
wasn' in this city...
wasn't in this school...
wasn't wif all of u...
wasn't even born...
then i wouldn't have caused so much trouble...
mayb, i dissapear in this world will b better for every1...
byebye...
bo mood le la

Ended her day....

.Friday, September 26, 2008 ' 4:20 PM

yo...
everyone pls tagg in tagg board which day u can meet...
especially jieqi n peixuan......
tell me the day after higher mother tougue when u're free...
anyway,
i know i've got agregate 200...
liyan also...
charmaine u've gotten so high!
235...
top 50 i tink..
in school...
hmm...
wish psle cn get higher than 230 ba...
but it seems quite impossible...
hmm... go ply audi ler byebyes

Ended her day....

.Thursday, September 25, 2008 ' 5:24 PM

ellozz all...
hmm...
i'm not gonna care bout anything considering fight anymore...
had enough of it...
gonna burst liao..
whatever happens,
its' not my problem anymore..
we just carry on wif our life now...
but,
i tink giving last chance for u guys 2 care bout this matter...
the friday after higher mother tougue...
10th october 2008....
Time:after school
Date:10th october 2008
Day:Friday
Venue:Plaground
...
this is the last chance i'm gonna give to settle all the problems..
and,
after this chance if u missed it its' not my problem anymore...
it is the last chance for u 2 tok face 2 face...
i dun wan settle in blogs...
blogs u guys dare 2 tok anything but face 2 face u guys become wuguis...
got guts settle all the problems at once...
face 2 face talk...
cannot settle then say byebye wish u the best thats' all....
then we dun have any relationship wif each other...
face 2 face u cry not my problem also...
u cry ur problem...
but u better nt cry...
u cry i will still continue the talk...
but if u make mii dulan u'll know what i'll do...
that's all....
u wan go a not it's all ur problem...
dun go in futher dun come find mii....
byebyes...

Ended her day....

.Wednesday, September 24, 2008 ' 1:38 PM

3rd in class~mii!
lols.. over excited..
1st in class~junliang!
2nd in class~shihwee!
4th in class~zhiyang
5th in class~leepeixuan
6th in class~zixiu
7th in class~shuh min
8th in class~jerrold
9th in class~daniel ng
10th in class~i forgot~lols
...

gotten news of unity class de...
1st in class~joy lee
2nd in class~ng li yan!
3rd in class~joycelyn choy!
shocked? lols...
hmm...
junliang got overall 271... so high F5
shihwee 265..
mii 262..
joy 270..
liyan 263..
joycelyn 236...

haiz....
dunno wat 2 type...
i dun wan 2 care bout everything le...
byebyes...
see u guys in heaven... lols.. jkjk

Ended her day....

.Saturday, September 20, 2008 ' 2:02 PM

Jus copied from crystal's blog...
but it makes sense after all...

STOP LYING,
STOP DENYING,
STOP BLABBERING,
STOP BIGMOUTHING,
STOP CHEATING,
STOP ACTING,
STOP FAKING,
STOP BETRAYING.

I know u have a big mouth,
but seriously,
we do not need a friend who spreads things around.
To think we had trusted u that much.
Everthing turned out 2 be fake.
In our eyes now,
u're nothing but a backstabber.
We felt being used,betrayed,dumped.
Need us?
Approach us.
Not crucial 2 u?
Throw us into the rubbish bin of ur heart.
So who do u think we're 2 u,
or rather,
who do u think u're to us.
We asked, giving u a chance 2 admit.
U denied wif a smile(:
the smile u persuaded us 2 trust u.
But as reality unfolded,
we saw how u carried on wif ur lies,
the darn right flawless lies,
matched ur innocent smile.
completely duped.
in short, we just hate u 4 everthing.
U have been replaced.

no,
n i dont bother making it smaller in front.
u will better check it out anyway.
lucky u if u know its you(:
i hope u change.
change 4 the better,
else we wont be the only ones saying that 2 u.
-

its true isn't it...

Ended her day....

.Friday, September 19, 2008 ' 6:16 PM

WALAN LEH..
MAI FIGHT AT MY BLOG!!!!!!
I PEK CHEK ENOUGH LE HOR..
I TELL U..
U WAN FIGHT GOT GUTS SETTLE OUTSIDE FACE 2 FACE..
MAI SPAM TOK IN MY TAG BOARD!
THIS IS MY BLOG I HAVE THE RIGHT TO CONTROL THINGS..
U WAN SETTLE?SETTLE FACE 2 FACE..
U JUS TELL ME..
I GIV U PLACE TO MEET..
MAI ONLY KNOW HOW TOK IN BLOG..
U KNOW HOW TOK IN BLOG THEN WHEN FACE 2 FACE LEH?
DUN EVEN DARE..
WAN SETTLE COME FACE 2 FACE OR U SHUT UP..
U MAKE ME FLARE UP I'LL MAKE UR LIFE MISERABLE...

你惹我生气我就让你绝子绝孙...

U DUN BELIEVE U TRY ME..
HAPPY THING?
I MAKE U FOREVER CANNOT HAPPY WAN???
U WAN TOK?
SAY IN TAG BOARD U WAN SETTLE..
I'LL MAKE A PLACE OUTSIDE 1 TIME SETTLE EVERYTHING!!!..
WTF

Ended her day....

.Thursday, September 18, 2008 ' 4:50 PM

haiz...
going crazy liao lar!!!
hmm... gonna tok bout yang jie qi 1st then the things happened 2day...

YANGJIEQI..
U SAY WE NV TELL U CANNOT SAY RIGHT?
THEN U IS NO BRAIN ISIT???
OBVIOUSLY THAT LIYAN N JOYCELYN IS STILL QUARRELLING RIGHT?
THEN U GO TELL HER THAT JUNLIANG N JOYCELYN PATCHUP LER IS WHAT MEANING?

CANT U EVEN TINK OF IT?????
WTF...
U SAY U DIDN'T CRY...
COS U DIDN'T REALISED THAT U'RE CRYING EVERYTIME SOMETHING HAPPEN RECENTLY...

AIYA DUN WAN TO BOUT U LE LAR!!!

hmmm.....
bout 2day,
rosie have bit problem wif the unity class ppl right...
then she call her bro n joyvelyn they all go playground settle lar..
then the qiuya call her 'sis'...
then they lik gang lik tat lar..
i mean we all...
then there tok tok tok settle liao lor..
then saw mrs chien..
then we ran..
then she gone ler..
we go bck lor..
then we realised that leanard go call joseph...
then i tink joseph go school tell teachers lar..
cos he tell ruiqi they all that we break the law..
we over 20 ppl gathering liao...
then we say the rosie brothers 1gruop mar..
we 1 group ma..
is 2 diff group lor..
then he say wat 2 groups 2gether de...
but, when we counted after he left,
we only got 19...
but add 1more ppl we die liao...
WTF lar..
so many things happen...
stupid de lar..........................................................................

Ended her day....

.Wednesday, September 17, 2008 ' 2:48 PM

yo!
yesterday science fair..
so dam tired...
but quite fun lar..
we did quite sucessfully n thks alot to cheryl,
who did the most talking yesterday..
then slept during chinese class..
came home used com awhile nia then go sleep liao..
sleep is lik from 5++ til lik um...
8++...
then after that i eat liao then lik half asleep..
then 10++ or 11++ sleep agn...
yesterday got dream la.. but dream impossible thing so dun tok bout it liao..
hmmm......

talk bout today ba..
2day quite alot things happened lar...
morning joyce wrote a letter wan giv 2 liyan der larh..
then she call mii read lor..
afer i read ler she say help giv 2 liyan..
then i go giv lor..
then chinese lesson..
nth much jus go com lab then teacher there tok tok tok cant touch com..
then recess liyan giv us see the letter agn lar..
then is lik dunno who go tell joyce that liyan say she hooligan lar..
i tink is yang..
then yang got tell liyan that jun n joyce patch up lar..
then is lik worsen joyce n liyan de thing lik tat right?
so mii n jun angry wif yang lar..
then recess lik start angry liao lor..
then after recess teachers go out of classrm then joyce came 2 my class awhile..
she told mii that liyan say wanna tok 2 her face 2 face..
then dunno what happened lar...
then nth liao lor..
after school waited for liyan..
then the gift we wanted 2 giv 2 junliang is like um...
at liyan's hse right...
then call jun go take cos quite big lor..
then we gave him a surprise...
not really surprise lar.. then he so cute when we wanted 2 giv him surprise lar...
then i go home liao lor..
haiya.. dunno wat 2 do wif yang la..
she lik wif lpx long liao then lik follo lpx liao???
learn from her?
not her fault?
i dunno wat 2 say lar...
you say not ur fault we blame u then u right lor..
WTF...
not ur fault then not ur fault lar..
learn from lpx liao lor..
dunno how tink what is right or wrong liao lor..
haiya dunno wat 2 say lar..
jiu shi very fan n very angry lar!!!

Ended her day....

.Friday, September 12, 2008 ' 2:05 PM

2day psle LC..
chinese easy, english okok lar..
morning mum dunno i going late call mii up 5+~6...
den i wake up lor..
after all went out i ply awhile psp den need go school liao...
so early 2day..
den reach school see jieneng n shihwee there walking in my direction..
so we go school liao lor...
den yang chasing after us at the back..
n we didn't know..
but she catch up with us lar..

2day dunno keep seeing him..
after school went playground awhile,
but haiz...
nv ply lar.. cos wet wet marhx...
den around 12.20+? went home..
nurul went 2 the bus stop earlier lar..
den reach there i ask her for her num..
she giv mii liao...
den after that i at home smsed nurul ask his num..
den she say she delete liao..
den i say nvm lor...
haiz...
nvm lar..
i yr end decided 2 giv him smthing leh..
actually not 1 lar..
is afew things...
haiz... post awhile nia..
i go do science project liao..
bbyes

Ended her day....

.Tuesday, September 9, 2008 ' 6:23 PM

haiz...
dunno what 2 do..
things happen..
haiz..
sudden happyness n sudden sadness..

我们都只会埋怨对方不爱自己，

从没检讨过自己有何值得爱的的方，

如果，

被离弃是应为自己一无是处，

还可以怪对方吗？

...
suddenly rmb this sentence...
and this...

已经哭不出眼泪了，

伤心的情绪变成一种恒常的心情，

被这个人伤害，

仿佛稀疏平常。

the first sentence i though alot... it makes sense after all...
the second sentence also have use,
but of cos not the feelin in mii...

i copied all these from a book name
每个人都有属于自己的咖啡树
as in,
everyone have their own coffee tree...
this book very nice..
read lik over 5times ler..
every time read got different feeling though..
but is in fan ti zi so some dunno how read..
haiz...
just anyhow post ...
ps hor..
dunno wat 2 post + not in mood 2 post alot...
bbyes.. i go eat ler

Ended her day....

.Monday, September 8, 2008 ' 8:10 PM

haiz... haiz... haiz...
things happened again...
wonder what happened 2 jason 2day...
so unlike him...
banging the door like siao..
wonder who n what they said 2 him..
poor jason ...
that's my feeling 2day..
lols..
even though i dont really like him,
really feel sa for him 2day..
i think he's angry plus sad ba..
haiz...
2day so dam sleepy whole day...
haiz..
den i feel like sleepin whole day lor..
but didn't lar..
den i chinese tution time even though 1hr but lik very fast go pass leh...
haiz...
den 2 day chinese tution last lesson on comprehension lar..
next few will be on compo liao lor..
but that's the place we lose alot of marks anyway..
hmm...
after that we helped mdm suzana..
den like help her do the marks thing lar..
den realised my compo get like um... 26.5...
yang u got 27...
shihwee like ...
i forget liao..
junliang get 23...
cheryl dunno...
ow jia ming get highest... 31.5...
so dam high lar...
dunno how he write lor..
nvm lar.. i get not bad also :P
haiz...
2day after helpin teacher lik i tink 3+ go out from school?
den i saw 173 take 173 2 beauty world...
go shop n save choose apple for our science experiment...
den i go there walk around the fruits lik ppl lookin at mii like that lar..
cos seldom got student will go that kinda place buy fruits de ma...
n little students will like choose fruits lor..
den like i walk here n there...
wanted 2 buy the fruit we eat at home de lar..
den in the end..
the fruit all not nice de..
ended still buying the fruit i eat at home..
cos i found out mayb i go late den all like not nice de liao..
so i buy lor..
managed 2 buy quite nice de lar..
bo choice liao...
haizz...
come bck saw tim on bus...
dunno what bus number liao..
not 173 n 77 can liao...
den he look lik so sian lik that lar...
den after that saw alot ppl from school de lar..
cos 3.30 lik tat liao den release time mar...
haiz...
bo mood lar...
mai post liao...
cousin a... when u coming 2 sg a?
if u got see my post mayb say lik around which week?
looking forward 2 u coming sg^^
cya guys..

Ended her day....

.Monday, September 1, 2008 ' 3:35 PM

haiz...
the holidays is really dam sian lar..
the only thing is that can sleep later nia n ply more com only...
haiz... my maple char lvl 89 le..
2day maple got patch 8 til 3.45...
actually 8til2.30
den become 8til3
now change til 8til 3.45...
haiz...
no maple dam sian...
audi i got ply lar but also quite sian liao lor..
jus feel lik plying maple lar..
den nth 2 do also...
sian sian sian..
jus now toknig 2 my maple dar lar..
den now he go do project or study i dunno..
den nth 2 do...
so came post lor...
den still got awhile den maple can patch...
by that time patch finish no 2x liao lor...
so stupid lar...
my char 2day actually can lvl 90 if got 2x de..
haiz...
aiya tok 2 u guys maple u guys also dunno..
nv ply maple mar...
haiz...
chinese hw haven do...
mayb night den do lor..
haiz...
dunno wat 2 do for 10mins plus... dun tok liao dam sian...
bbyes

Ended her day....