.Thursday, October 30, 2008 ' 5:16 PM
Life is meaningless without you,
without you appearing.
I always reprimand others for not hiding their feelings,
but i know that it isn't easy to do it.
Hiding your feelings will make you feel uncomfortable,
and now i really wish others can control their feelings well.
Because,
if you show out all of your feelings is not good,
neither hiding all your feelings.
I'm 1 good example,
hiding my feelings from every1 even the closest.
Very sorry for not sharing,
but i dont want others to be my 'punching bag'.
But,
now i feel that life has no meaning.
even though i'm sure that i wont do any thing silly,
but i'm really afraid to go crazy somedays.
If i go crazy,
please stay away from me.
Cause,
me going crazy will be like a volcano exploding.
Harmful,
that's the word.
A very scary face of people,
that is if you normally dun get very angry,
you suddenly get angry it will be very scary.
MEANINGLESS life,
COLOURLESS.
Life Without You,
Life which is boring.
What a Life.
. ' 4:10 PM
confused now,
with many kinda feelings...
i'm going crazy..
reall dam fan now...
suddenly,
only joyce jio me out...
nobody else...
nobody else jios me out...
if some1 jio me out with joyce,
i sure go de...
but nobody...
dam bored at home,
sure think alot of useless stuff...
realised that only joyce is close to me now...
2nd close de is like shihwee?
... haiz...
liyan's attitude towards me makes me feel like she doesn't feel like toking 2 me,
n we're drifting apart...
so,
i didn't tok 2 her much after all...
yang,
i dun have much 2 tell her also ...
so we're not toking much too...
shihwee i do tok 2 her but not much,
joyce too...
like every1's drifting apart..
i feel such a sudden loneliness...
never felt this feeling before,
maybe it's my imagination after all...
loneliness is scary...
as in i wanted to have quietness all along,
but didn't expect quietness could be so scary...
all along,
maybe i should get used to it...
cos i think as i predict,
we won't get into the same secondary school...
and,
with my current character i think those frens i make in secondary wouldn't be true frens...
maybe they just wanna to be with more,
but they will pangseh u often...
nope,
i'm not afraid of ppl pangseh-ing me...
but i dun like the feeling of non close frens,
nobody to confide in...
really confide in de ppl has no1...
the most i talk to is like only joyce?
maybe cos i dun trust rest after all...
not because i dun wanna trust u guys,
but i couldn't get the plain trust i wan 2 have...
it is like something is between us...
making me not to trust loads of ppl...
and that makes my personality...
and i'm feeling that i'm scary myself...
too quiet at moments...
really a crazy person...
.Wednesday, October 29, 2008 ' 8:15 PM
他笑，
她笑，
你笑，
我笑。
我们永远是这样。
他哭，
她哭，
你哭，
我哭。
永远都是他开始，
但是我很可能是结束的人。
因为他的一举一动都被看见，
造成了悲剧。
希望这悲剧能早日结束吧！
.Tuesday, October 28, 2008 ' 5:02 PM
真的看得出你对他很痴情，
他对你提出分手你应该十分伤心吧？
希望你能早日摆脱痛苦，
重新过你无忧无虑的日子。
你要知道，
爱一个人不一定需要拥有它，
只要你知道她活得开心，快乐，
你因该替她开心才对。
你从来不给我机会和你做朋友，
但是我从来不怪你。
我只怪自己没有能力和你做好朋友，
没有能力替你分担你的痛苦，
减轻你的痛苦。
我知道现在的你一定十分难过，
但是日子应该还是照样过。
如果我是你的朋友，
我希望知道一些原因后能劝她再给你一个机会。
但是，我现在说这些因该都没有用了。
我知道你永远不会到我的博客来，
但是我还是希望能让你看见。
你要勇敢地熬过这一关，
因为这只是你爱情的开始，
而不是爱情的结束。
记得，
爱一个人只要他能开心你就会满足，
这才是真的爱。
.Monday, October 27, 2008 ' 12:50 PM
OMG!!!
i've cut a new hair style,
actually is like copy judith de larh :X
just that i dunno,
different ppl got different kinda feel ba...
a pity that i cant have rebonding on sunday,
cos rebonding need 4hrs :X
maybe when my granny goes there or when i get to taiping i'll go for rebonding...
but,
the new hair style is like put down still ok lar...
but tie up like no difference and like abit funny funny de lor...
cos cut til like very short?
lols... in school 2moro u guys will see lar...
hmm...
thinkig of new ideas for poems :X
when got time will try post more of life n poems :)
trying to write life into poems...
hmm.. i go do other things ler :X
cya guys :)
*rmb 2 tagg hor:)*
.Saturday, October 25, 2008 ' 3:02 PM
What are friends for?
Friends are for us to share our troubles,
happiness and sadness.
Also,we'll have to do the same.
Which kind of friend is a true friend?
A true friend will be by your side no matter what happens,
will share their happiness or sadness with you,
will help you to overcome problems and grow up.
A true friend will tell you your good points,
and also tell you your bad points at times.
They will try to help you change the bad into good,
help you get out of your sorrowness.
Friends are like your couple,
helping you to change for the better.
If your true friend see you sad,
she/he will feel sad too.
True friends will want the best for you,
will think of you before themselves.
When you realised a true friend is beside you,
you should cherish him/her.
A true friend is like a couple,
beside you no matter what happens,
even the sky collapes she/he will take it down for you.
.Friday, October 24, 2008 ' 6:29 PM
***EDITED VERSION***
I love you,
You love her,
She love him.
I don't know if he loves her.
So what stat are we in?
a triangle or a square?
No matter what,
I wish you to be happy,
You wish her to be happy,
She wish him to be happy.
The cycle goes on.
It goes on and on,
Never going to stop.
I'm always by your side,
You're always by her side,
She's always by his side.
We're all just like a life cycle,
only that this cycle hurts people.
This cycle is a life killer,
But we're all willing to be killed.
We want each other to be happy isn't it?
But why are we hurting ourselves instead?
We hurt ourselves,
in order to let our beloved happy.
We're bleeding inside,
each and everyone of us.
Look around the world.
How many pairs of couple are long lasting?
How many pairs of them are really in love?
Finding someone we really love is hard,
But finding someone who love us back is harder.
Wish everyone who is bleeding and trying to get out,
good luck.
. ' 5:58 PM
Today,
he came back to school!
And, jee eon came back too!
she came back to visit frens...
she changed to an international school,
and now she's having her holidays...
haiz...
my feelings dam what lar...
happy and sad... haiz... mai tok le..
.Monday, October 20, 2008 ' 12:39 PM
当时你突然闯进了我的心窝，
现在你又从我的生命中不见。
你的出现把我的生命改变，
让我有从没有过的经验。
我很高兴你在我的生命出现，
但是同时你也给了我从没有过的伤心。
我的情绪随着你改变，
我的人也从此改变了。
你有哪么大的能力改变我，
但是我始终不能用我的力量改变你。
我其实不是真的想改变你，
我只是想要和你做个朋友，
多了解你。
但是，
我就是没办法让你给我那么一点点的注意。
我，
对你只能默默地看，
默默地表达我的心意。
我只希望你能开心，
能快乐。
我要告诉你，
你需要我的时候我一定会在你身边，
我会等你的。
虽然我知道你的心已经是她的，
但是我还是抱着那个1%的机会。
记得，
需要我的时候我一定在你身边。
. ' 8:44 AM
You made me attracted to you,
but made me heartbroken as i love you.
Tried to hate you,
but in the end i loved you more.
Never felt this way before,
you are the first.
Falling into your trap,
i was happy.
Following your trap,
i realised a matter.
Your trap can let people go in,
but people cant get out.
Just like that,
i fell in and never came out.
But,
i died inside it with a smile.
Because,
dieing in your trap is enough for me.
.Saturday, October 18, 2008 ' 6:49 PM
Gotten the new S.H.E album from mum's hand as i got her to buy for me,
But i dun feel much happiness...
Dunno why the sudden feeling of sleeping...
but,
i'm not any bit of sleepy...
feel like resting...
not doing anything...
haiz...
dunno what happen mood dam down lor...
mai tok ler...
byebyes...
.Friday, October 17, 2008 ' 9:24 PM
went 2 sentosa 2day...
so dam tired now..
leg dam pain...
but it was enjoyable...
even though we spent alot of $....
:X
tired 2 post le so byebye...
.Thursday, October 16, 2008 ' 3:11 PM
Standing by,
All the way.
Here to help you through your day.
Holding you up,
When you are weak,
Helping you find what it is you seek.
Catching your tears,
When you cry.
Pulling you through when the tide is high.
Just being there,
Through thick and thin,
All just to say, you are my friend.
. ' 3:10 PM
You are friendly, kind and caring
Sensitive, loyal and understanding
Humorous, fun, secure and true
Always there... yes that's you.
Special, accepting, exciting and wise
Truthful and helpful, with honest blue eyes
Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright
Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.
You're one of a kind, different from others
Generous, charming, but not one that smothers
Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
But not just another... in the long chain.
Appreciative, warm and precious like gold
Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old
You'll always be there, I know that is true
I'll always be here... always for you.
. ' 2:51 PM
To you, my dear friend,
Friendship begins, and goes on forever,
Friend indeed don't put friend in mouth,
Just put in heart even five years no see,
Friend don't ask bagatelles,
Just wish everything goes well,
Friend don't disturb you,
Just give you the strength to go on,
Friend don't want got sth. from you,
Just love,
Friend always share the beauty of life,
Even more the hard time,
Friend goes together when the sun is shining,
Even more the raining day,
Friend pledge someday sth.,
Even more the actions,
Friend remember happy times past,
Even more now,
Friendship ends, and we pass away.
. ' 2:39 PM
A Real Friend
A real friend would forgive
If I did something wrong
A real friend will lend a hand
Whenever I'm not strong
A real friend would listen
If I tried to speak
A real friend will accept
Whether I am strong or weak
A real friend would care
If I ever fell ill
A real friend will know
How I really feel
A real friend would always be there
If I need them by my side
A real friend will remember me
Long after I have died
A real friend would be forever
If I even moved away
A real friend will never truly leave
In each other's hearts we shall always stay
.Monday, October 13, 2008 ' 9:28 PM
yay!
today the meeting was very sucessful...
we patch up le!
yippees~
lols...
1 thing off my mind another came up...
what if we fight again?
i thought for awhile...
depends ba... that's what came in my mind...
yup..
depends ba... see the situation then decide XD
now i'll just enjoy being with my frens!
went to jurong entertainment....
jurong point...
we decided 2 make a cup for mum suzana but the cup takes a longer time so in the end we decide to make an A4 size puzzle which is 100pieces for her..
wish she will like itXD
hmm...
not going post much...
anyway,
this show is very very worth watching...
hot shot / lanqiuhuo / 篮球火。。。
i'm going 2 watch the 12 ep now and wish you guys can start watching it!
it is really worth watching!!! dam nice de lor...
http://www.hdshare.tv/video/913/HS-ep12u guys go check it out ba..
.Saturday, October 11, 2008 ' 4:24 PM
Haiz....
Monday's coming and i'm starting to feel afraid..
cos,
me myself wish the family tree to be back to normal too...
but to me things done cannot be corrected...
words said cannot be taken back...
because,
things done will always be seen by someone...
words said will always be heard by somebody...
i know that everybody will do wrong things...
and,
everybody deserves a chance...
but, i don't know why i just can't put myself down to forgive you...
everyone says so...
i just don't know what i want to do...
how i wish monday will never come...
i miss the family tree...
the ex family tree which is always together no matter what happens...
but, i don't know will we be like before ever again...
i don't know...
how i wish...
how i wish everything didn't happen...
and we'll be out together happily...
haiz...
the only thing i can do now is wait...
wait for monday to come...
wait to see what i'll do on that day...
wait to see what the outcome will be on that day...
but, i'll still organise a trip or two for the family tree...
only the family tree...
no matter we patch up anot,
this few trips will go on as per normal...
because,
after the fight,
it is almost everyone's wish to go out together again...
maybe,
if we do not patch up,
this few days i'll forgive everything...
i want this days to be happy...
at least,
we'll have fresh memories of being happy together...
haiz...
how i wish the time can stop at childrens day...
childrens day...
or,
maybe it can stop at this moment right now after all...
and i'll not lose you...
nor will i be unhappy again...
.Thursday, October 9, 2008 ' 8:46 PM
yo~
today was so tiring la...
the higher mother tongue paper quite easy lor...
compo bit hard la...
then meet liyan,shanice n joycelyn at the bus stop...
drizzling liao tat time...
then go west mall buy things,eat n so on...
then was lik wasting time there then me n liyan very pekchek lor..
then liyan started running then i followed her then pig followed me...
then we ran into the station, pig followed us...
then after that joycelyn called liyan,
i ans the phone..
then the train came and we got on it...
then saw joycelyn..
but i think she didn't see us...
then we got to the last cabin...
after thant went to vivo...
we walk walk there and bought some food to eat...
after that we thought of going to sentosa so go there lor...
then go there so unlucky drizzling agn...
but we continued our walk lor...
then after awhile we walk tired le then went to rent a bike each...
the bike there quite ex lor...
1hr for $5...
but w still rent la...
then we enjoyed cycling lor...
went alot place with bike...
but after that time pass very fast we need go home le...
but,
today was still quite a joyful day...
.Wednesday, October 8, 2008 ' 1:52 PM
if nothing comes in,
2moro's trip is cancelled..
since no1 is keened to go,
what's the point of going..
go there,
see what...
nth.
nth will be nice..
who said that want to pei wo go de?
and now u're backing out...
i dun understand why,
and i'll not want to know why.
since all not keened to go,
it'll be cancelled.
i won't go there alone,
as i already have no mood to go.
my outing mood is all gone.
i'm not blaming you,
so you dun have to take down the blame.
i'm blaming myself.
believing too easily.
too easily...
no mood...
i'll go get a book and tear it into pieces...
draw crazily and tear it...
that's the only way to let out my feelings...
the real feelings inside me...
no one understands me,
not even myself.
what am i?
i'mma alien..
some1 who does not espress her feelings...
who does not know her feelings...
and,
that alien is none other than myself..
i thought before...
dissapearing from the world would be good for everyone..
even myself..
but,
i cant..
i'm living for a dunno what reason...
a dunno what reason...
.Tuesday, October 7, 2008 ' 8:31 PM
omg omg omg...
actually this news i know long ago ler...
jus dunno wat 2 tagg then say de...
u guys know tat s.h.e got a new album???
the title is <<<
我的电台 FM S.H.E>>>
the songs inside is lik um...
dam nice la.. but afew not so nice de...
1
早安您好2
宇宙小姐3
我爱烦恼4
喜碧夫人时间5
沿海公路的出口 this is my fav song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
6
天亮了7
比你贱8
女孩当自强9
安静了10
我是火星人11
612 星球12
店小二13
月光手札14
酸甜hmm...
and, now very reluctant la..
wanted 2 cancel the meeting de...
but, i promised le must keep my promise...
and,
i dun wan 2 dissapoint the lot of you who are waiting for us to patch up...
but a fact is,
i cannot treat her like before le...
my feelings towards her is not like before anymore...
so, i wish that if we didn't patch up u would understand y...
and,
i cannot confirm what i'll do on that day...
i plan to have a nice talk,
but,
if that day my mood not good for certain reasons,
or,
some one makes me fed up,
i wouldn't know what i'll do...
mayb i'll break down...
or mayb i'll become crazy...
i dun know...
jus giv u a warning...
whatever happens on tat day,
it is a fact...
dun know what to say...
i didn't prepare anything for that day,
and i'm not going to...
jus to say that,
no matter what happens,
worst or best,
i believe it'll be in our memories forever...
because,
it's i tink the 1st time we had such a big fight...
a fight i didn't expected when i was in this group...
but,
if i get angry,
i'm absolutely serious...
so, 1 warning...
if i'm angry,
better not joke with me...
dun say u never see or what...
u joke with me,
i get angrier,
i dun know what i'll do...
mayb i'll go to the coffee shop and get a knife...
but i suppose before killing you i'll kill myself...
becos i'm in no position to take someone's life away...
