.Wednesday, June 23, 2010 ' 10:18 PM
3rd post of the day sia...
wonder why today keep wanna post..
hmm...
today afternoon started to rain agn,
so sian...
like wth last week rain so much this week keep raining agn..
den i face the com nth do, jus off it. lols.
like ok holiday was dam bored without a work,
but working is like so tiring.
why isn't there something to focus for,
and can be enjoyed.
hahas.
hmm...
offline le den i lie on the bed,
thought alot.
den actually realised different batch of people got different thinking.
not only we think so differently with the adults,
even the people of age near us think differently.
if you realise,
you can see thinking of us and our seniors and juniors have some difference.
may not be of big difference,
but there is bount to be difference.
maybe is because of different batch have different thinking ba.
we see things differently.
like the older batch is using blackberry now,
but our batch is using iphone.
same logic lor..
so actually we cant really blame our parents for not understanding us la.
cos no matter what,
they are of big age difference with us.
but the thing is about,
why we can understand what they are thinking but they cant understand ours?
is it because they really cant understand,
or they dont even try to?
cause we dont really want anything seriously big or what from them,
not difficult to achieve.
we only want a simple understanding from they,
understand what we are going through,
give us their support.
but ya...
parents still cant understand la..
but,
partly also our fault.
because they dont try to understand us,
so we dont try to let them know what we're thinking.
thoughts are not shared,
therefore understanding is not there.
sometimes when we are really tired,
pace too fast,
we should always slow down our pace.
stop for a moment,
take a rest.
slowing down will allow us to clear some thoughts,
and we can also understand and look at things more clearly.
to stop and take a rest,
is to prepare to walk a longer distance.
. ' 2:17 PM
ok. that's some random chinese post,
i think i may start writing some feelings and so in chinese agn.
cos realised last time keep writing,
den now keep changing things to english.
my chinese writing drop alot.
so i think will go back to writing chinese ba...
or maybe mix lor.. haha.
homework still not done,
but tution was not bad.
i realised actually i know how to do things lor...
just that i cant remember the formula.
so will try my best to remember all formula=)
hmm...
holidays ending soon,
looking forward,
but also not.
like so sian of food at home la...
but i become bank,
den no money for myself=.=
wish tonight he gets back his money and returns me my $40...
else i wonder how i go out on friday=.=
dun wish to touch my $50 note lar...
den my $30plus mum also haven return me=.=
i really become bank le sia...
after i saved money this holiday.
but wish i wont spent the money i saved this holiday after school reopen.
else waste all my effort sia...
at 1st i already said december i wanna try hebe's hairstyle,
but holiday go watch 斗牛要不要 and 恶魔在身边，
den cant decide to cut short of leave it long but change hairstyle agn=.=
cos hebe hairstyle dam nice lar...
but idk if cut le will look dam weird anot.
den rainie de long hair dam nice also=.=
like rainie show saying dun cut,
hebe show saying cut=.=
i think shall think properly ba...
since i still have months for me to think over it. haha.
but will not be cutting my hair during this period...
even though i really wanna go cut sia..
cos like i have this feeling my hair really out of control.
fringe abit too thick den hair long le also.
long nvm but fringe long den if curl dam sian lar...
somemore now long le idk if at sch still can last how long without being caught.
lols.
cos last time i swipe that fringe ms lee cfm cant catch me de.
my hair curl de good point.
now i think still cant catch.
but awhile more longer le maybe can catch dam liao.. lols.
lets see how it goes ba...
chinese direct translation,
the boat reach bridge head auto straight. LOL. sound weird.
but i think u guys know what i mean la...
. ' 2:07 PM
人生中，有十分多的道理与理论存在。
很多道理是我们大家都懂的，
很多是每天都看到的，听到的。
但是虽然我们被道理围绕着，
我们心中也知道很多，
我们真的有用到吗？
这又是一个问题。
常常，我们都懂的道理，
遇到了情况却被遗忘。
道理；理论，
是生命中必有的东西。
但是我们必须在适当的时候，
把我们所知道的，所会的，
加以并有。
常常很多事情可以轻松地就被解决，
但是我们却忘了最轻松的办法。
有时，我们会选择遗忘，
应为我们怕面对现实的残酷。
现实，是残酷的。
但是，逃避，并不能解决问题，
反而把害怕与无能表现出来。
大家都可以是最强的人，
但是应为我们很多都不敢面对现实，
造成很多事都没有解决的办法，使我们不能前进，停留在此时。
.Sunday, June 20, 2010 ' 10:14 PM
k i'm here agn!
haha.
this few days keep coming up uh...
haha..
now on this china website thingy,
sort of like twitter liddat.
alot celebrities up there.
real de ok..
cos they got verification de.
of course,
cos s.h.e play den i go play de la..
go there mainly to see what they upload,
their latest news and so lor..
actually quite fun la..
maybe u guys can go try?
this is my web
http://t.sina.com.cn/1750971987hmm...
was supposed to do maths hw today de...
was planning to do..
in the end?
end up playing 2 lvls in maple den watching show..
hehe i zai hor..
2moro mus do. else idk what to do during tution.
previously said try to write song,
but i realised quite hard la...
cos even though my chinese not bad,
but sg de chinese is still not perfect de lurh.
like standard not as high as taiwan there de.
but i'm still trying. haha
i think for it to be easier,
i find 1 song which i like the tune.
den follow the word pattern,
write out.
den liddat slowly edit long le should be know how do le ba..
haha.
but will only do during free time lar...
cos is just a new thing to try,
may or may not suceed.
just get experience ma...
no loss,
and may have gain haha.
scarely i can become song writer also.
hehe.
realised my typing quite alot is chinese direct translation sia..
but lazy type chinese,
and ppl reading the post hard to read also ba..
even me myself see too much chinese woords also lazy read..
LOL.
hmmm...
shall go yan jiu my songs. hehe.
2moro shall chiong maths hw 1st...
idk how do lit=.=
see how ba.
cya guys. XD
.Friday, June 18, 2010 ' 5:20 PM
thks guys.
yang also. haha.
yesterday night your sms came at the right time sia...
i think 1st time sms with u so late. lols.
hmm...
i'm better already la.
after posting and ...,
i shall not elaborate on ... la. lol.
my mood was really better.
only wish for some sports or cycling so can fa xie la...
but obviously nobody can pei wo=.=.
lols.
unless i go to bukit timah there or bukit batok there uh...
really know nobody which stays near me who likes sports...
so dam sian lurh...
today slept til 11,
so pro right.
den came online,
waiting while my shows load n download...
den reading my storybook here,
playing games online n listening to music.
somehow now i really like my w595 alot.
haha=)
in love with my dear phone man...
even though sometimes i drop it or so,
den got abit scratches,
but i still like it alot.
but now after being at nubox yesterday,
suddenly feel like buying ipod touch.
lols...
last time got think of buying iphone,
but not really want it that much la.
cause still support sony ericsson,
den idk what's the use of having an iphone either.
lols.
but idk if ipod touch can go online anot??
lols. kaes i'm like so outdated in info of apple stuff.
haha.
but i jus want ipod touch cos of the uses,
den best if can go online.
i'm sure if i get to buy it i'll load the ipod touch with music n shows la.
best is that i can get my hands on a 16gb de.
should be enough i think.
32gb dam good,
but maybe abit too large uh.
can upload afew series of shows up there if i zip the shows already.
but quite ex also i think,
so idk if parents will let sia...
but will ask. haha=)
but the thing is that i'm going to check if it can go online now=)
alot ppl using iphone,
but i'm wanting to buy ipod touch.
weird uh..
haha.
but actually iphone also not bad lar..
just that i think better to have seperated music device.
else,
maybe i'll buy ipod touch den get iphone years later.
lols.
by then i think iphone will have so many new editions,
and will be abit outdated since blackberry is coming up against it now.
blackberry is also dam hot now can.
haha.
but until now i still don't see the interesting part in it lar..
maybe will when i get somehow abit older.
haha=)
i'm having slow reaction towards the 'in' stuffs yea...
just going for what i like=)
being happy,
being yourself is the most important isn't it?
ok... my post is having such a big change in mood uh.
haha.
such a big change in topic too.
kaes i'm random.
den a random bye now. haha=)
. ' 12:11 AM
haha... today 618 is ella's birthday=)
lols... 617 was their 3dog birthday.
the childrens of selina's dog pinky.
ok. so that's happy birthday to the dogs,
and of course to ella=)
k the starting was random.
just something i was reminded of when i wanted to type.
but the feeling which made me post wasn't that la.
jus like the whole holiday was so sian,
i camp at home now n do nth...
face the boring computer which i cant leave it,
do boring stuffs.
monday best lor...
cos got new episodes of show to keep me busy for like around 4hrs?
but other days i jus sian around online.
mapling, audition, find dramas to watch,
stare blankly at the computer.
like this few days got back watching old dramas which i liked alot,
suddenly feel stressed.
the stress doesn't come from the dramas definitely.
they was inside me all along.
just that i always don't express myself,
dont show it out.
actually i think this year i already changed due to the change of enviroment.
like i became more straight forward or so.
somehow good,
somehow bad.
from last year to this year was terrible.
like so much happen,
to me and around me.
other than the change faced during the period of sec 1 start,
this was the major 1.
i think the worst things which happened to me all happened during this period la...
but ok,
some frens will know some parts of it,
but definitely not the full story.
i dont think i'll let any1 know the full story la..
like ok,
i'm so zi bi.
just wish typing my feeling here will make me feel better,
like not so stressed up.
archade was a dam good place for me to destress for a moment,
but dun wanna keep going there la.
isn't a good thing to me or my pocket.
like so ... ,
volcano going erupt like that.
ok so i gonna control that.
i know it's not the 1st time that i felt things are best to be a dream,
but reality is reality.
just need to know how to face it and solve it.
like wtf=.=
pek cek lar...
i think i really need a break.
but that's impossible,
right?
will try to find a way to get out la.
haha...
like the,
i dun get out i'll be trapped.
dun wish to be trapped kaes.
haha
ok idk what crap i'm talking anw.
gonna have tution on monday,
maths.
wish things go well when school reopens lor.
i shall try to begin a fresh new me.
stress,
please go away. go into the cotton or what n not into humans pleaseeeeeeeee...
-ok, i'm not referring to any1 of you in the post.
things n matter i'm referring to i think only yang may know abit,
since i think i did mention some parts to her.
but i dun think any others know,
so ya.
dun think to much.
i shall start a new beginning,
when the next dawn comes...
or mayb the one after the next.
lols. i think i'm gonna keep dragging on.
haha. ok really feels better after this post.
thks blog,
you're my life saver.
OMG 12.33 already.
i gotta go sleep=)
.Friday, June 11, 2010 ' 10:11 AM
ok... that's a new playlist. haha.
some songs are for some ppl,
but ok la...
is cause i like the songs.
i think there's no cheerful songs there,
as usual=.=
wonder when can i start listening to cheerful songs.
haha
yea.
holiday was alright la..
with my homeworks untouched=.=
but the work experience i got from those part time jobs really alot,
i learn alot too.
but i swear that i dun want to give flyers in public anymore!'
except letter box and door to door.
it sucks man...
like doesn't suite me at all la...
a person like me who is so anti social,
or should i say dont like to talk to strangers,
or even dont like to talk,
have to stand there n give ppl flyers,
talk to them,
and take their anger.
no.
i cant do it.
doing it will make me unpredictable.
the next moment u may see me unable to take it anymore,
and throwing the papers into a person's face.
hmm...
giving up half way is what i normally does...
but not at job until now.
but ya...
i shouldn't give up for this job which pay is quite good lor...
but nvm...
just that liddat i think popular i also cant go do in future ba..
cant be in service line.
ok. i shall go and find something to do,
mayb coming bck to post agn later?
who knows...
there's alot things for me to say,
but some should be kept secret afterall.
not me not wanting to tell,
but not within my abilities.
.Monday, June 7, 2010 ' 6:35 PM
guys,
i know this period alot things happen.
but lets just try to get over them ba...
ok i know it's hard...
cause alot of things i myself also cant get over it.
and somemore i personally have alot problems...
personal ones which doesn't concern u guys...
so ya...
that's alot stress n i know it.
just let time do it's part ba...
dun force yourself or what.
cause some matters,
needs time to be solved.
we still have a long way ahead,
we'll solve this someday.
it may take very long,
may be even 10years,
but forcing ourselves now wont put things in a good place right?
when we see each other we may feel awkward,
but it'll get over someday.
someday in future,
i'm sure that we'll be together again.
but before that,
we need to have a new start.
not to forget the past,
but to continue walking.
so everything needs time.
it's time we slowly learn how to solve our own problems uh...
cause this 2 years,
problems get more and more,
worst and worst.
and doesn't seems that i'm the only one,
i realised even my idols also.
just an add on ,
ella, your granpa will be alright ok?
there's alot people supporting you.
and lan you shi,
your granpa will be looking at you in heaven,
and i'm sure he doesn't wants to see you being so sad.
