.Thursday, April 22, 2010 ' 3:45 PM
so what is this shit all about...
does this have to happen?
especially making everything so clear during this period when the exams are real?
WHAT BECOMED OF US?
i thought it wasn't so bad,
i thought it's jus a misunderstanding.
i thought everything will get better,
we can always start anew.
buildings always can be repainted,
bedsheets can always be washed.
hair can always be re-tied,
make ups can always be re done.
but where did all this things go...
everything is out of my hands now,
everything is gone.
nobody tries to retrieve,
nobody tries to catch.
then why start this in the beginning...
from then til now i learnt alot,
i gain alot.
but i rather my life at that time til now was plain,
rather than losing everything at the end.
i tried,
but did you?
ok,
i'll let everything off.
i dont want to care anymore.
never again.
i shall just live my life til the end,
with my dreams and still dreams.
i tried to protect,
i tried.
but i failed.
grabbing onto a person,
is like grabbing onto a bird,
grabbing onto a fish,
grabbing onto a hamster,
grabbing onto a turtle.
they want freedom,
and by grabbing on they wont feel happy.
so i'm letting go,
as i know i shouldn't grab on,
and i cant grab on.
they will go someday.
after this i'll never do it again.
so can humans be trusted?
my answer is,
it depends on you.
we tend to not trust after being hurt,
but in the end we still give everything.
eventhough i kept 10%,
but it still hurts,
i know in the future i'll still trust,
and will still be hurt.
but i wish no more,
this feeling is terrible.
i want nothing from this.
everything is over.
over.
.Wednesday, April 21, 2010 ' 4:58 PM
ok, i'm here to post,like at last right.. LOL...gonna say bout sunday 1st. haha=)sunday, was my happiest day in this year ba...because that's the day which i got to see s.h.e,and it's the 2nd time.the different thing is,this time i'm going up to see them closely and let them sign,so i'm very very excited. haha.woke up like 7 in the morning,but cause jieqi cant go out so early so wait til like going 1 den reach plaza sing.we go take auto card 1st,incase later dun have.den after that went to see how long is the queue, and it is very long as it went all the way down.so we decided to go look for a restaurant there,as the person say go the restaurant eat can get piority pass,and with that we can be in the front.after looking for quite some time, found it but piority card no more=.=waste of time right...we thought the queue wont like move til s.h.e start to sign, therefore decided to eat den go look at them sing le den go sign..who knows,at 3 the queue turned 1 whole round and it went to a place which s.h.e can be seen.so decided to queue there,and we were at a dam good spot to view man..den who knows,when s.h.e haven even come out the queue moved=.=wth lor...den we decided to wait for them to come out,but the queue moved dam fast n in the end when they come out we moved.the whole singing process which consist of 2 songs we couldn't see any bit of it can..den later when the signing start,everyone from the back is pushing.an outdoor autograph session is dam bad already,to add on to the heat ppl squeeze like dunno rushing to where.i was like squashed like sashimi can...den all tall tall de even make it hard to breath lor..lucky after that i think someone from taiwan,s.h.e's company de came to control the crowd,and therefore the crowd slowly spread out and was more comforting.i think maybe the organiser not so gd in planning in this event ba...got quite a huge improvement space.after than me and jieqi wanted to say jiayous, we'll support you forever de..den mayb cos nervous,den i'm not gd in communicating with seniors or ppl older than me la...so when i go up i was dam happy,but nth can come out of my mouth...i jus keep smiling,and i think the smile mayb abit too what,like got abit shock tio ella ba... LOL.but being able to see them,shake hand with them,i'm dam happy man...all the wait is worth.haha... den ya lo....
den actually s.h.e teach me alot n motivated me alot ba...
like now i want to move upwards,
all because of them.
and i know they wont be able to see my blog...
LOL...
but i jus wanna say what i wanted to say to them,
since it cant come out of my mouth.. LOL..
s.h.e, i'll support you guys forever.
it's ur job,
and somehow eventhough it's tiring but i know you guys like singing alot.
because it was your singing which got you to this job,
your voice which let us know you.
but no matter what you do,
just have to be happy.
no matter what happens,
s.h.e fans will be supporting you.
i believe that eventhough sometimes we may feel sad,
but at the end we will respect your decisions,
and support you.
cause afterall,
we want you to be happy.
being able to hear you guys and see you guys,
knowing that you are happy is enough for fans.
hmm...and,i think my feelings towards you guys never change,and will never change.things between us wasn't going well,but i wish it will.i wish to solve it,and will try my best.we may not return to past,as we are all moving forward and finding our future.but i wish that we will be in each other's future,instead of only being a part of memory.things change,but my heart never change.ppl change,but memories and past will always stay.
