.Wednesday, March 4, 2009 ' 6:53 PM
haha...
test 2moro,
and still got netball 2moro,
even though we got 1 today ...
ms rine* say monday and thursday training starting from next week,
cause coach wednesday can only teach from 3-5,
den tuesday she not free...
coach must be dam busy...
i feel she's quite a nice person,
and in fact to me,
she quite chio leh..
is like she shine with her tann...
haiz...
dam stressed,
depressed,
and i dunno what...
mixed feelings...
5.1-5.3 not done,
maths test and eng test 2moro,
science test on friday,
training 2moro...
next week got test agn,
and i really feel like dieing...
you know,
if i can,
i wish 2 go out on the road,
even better is that a truck comes...
die,
or maybe let me have a long long sleep.
a sleep which is very long...
long enough 2 let me forget everything...
parents are unfair...
they always say we dun think in their way,
but do they think in our way?
they always think that they are right,
never taking our opinion...
we have our own ideas,
our own dreams,
our own thinking,
our own ways...
they dun even let us do what we want,
never give us the freedom and trust we need from them,
never supporting us...
i dun take other parents,
i take my own mum...
even though sometimes she's good 2 me,
but she dun give me trust,
not really freedom,
and never supporting me.
see that time when choosing cca?
i wanted 2 try basketball,
and she says no...
i said netball and she said yes at that time..
now when i say about netball,
she is like that is not important,
concentrate on your studies...
she knows that i lik art,
and she just dun care...
when i do art she'll ask got hw anot,
and is like the art is not a subject.
never thought of my feelings,
never..
i like sports, things consist of art,
but she dissaprove it all.
sports can do harm 2 me?
art can do harm?
it is also part of life.
what she thinks is,
hw, main subjects are important.
den all the small subjects are nothing...
her hopes are always set on me,
but always doting on my brother.
like him so much,
go put ur hopes on him la...
why even bother 2 put hopes on me when you know i'm not going fufil it,
and i hate those things...
i'm not interested,
not a little bit.
always expect me 2 do what u want,
but never doing what i want.
selfish.
humans are unexpected selfish...
me myself is also selfish...
everyone is selfish...
the world is unpredictable...
because of parents,
they will make people lose hope in people.
they will make childs get closer 2 their frens,
cause at least the frens understand and support more.
who were the ones who stand by our side when we needed help most?
frens.
they were the ones who supported us,
not parents.
if i can fufil my dreams,
i will thank my frens.
they are my pillar of strength,
and of cause those teachers who i like,
cause they helped me 2 learn things,
more thngs than my parents cn make me realise from life.
i can tell you, my life will end earlier than anyone expected...
that is what i predict,
since i hate the world so much.
but, if i die,
i will always remember my frens.
cause if i miss anything from this world, it is you guys.
you guys make me feel my worth,
my presence in world.
i feel great with all of u.