.Friday, March 27, 2009 ' 8:41 PM
stupid=.= wanted 2 go 2 blogs,
but tried alot of blogs and i couldn't go=.=
computer got problem or whatsoever la...
haiz...
quite emo this few days=.=
i wan die lar=.=
but,
if i really wan die,
i will make sure i 100% die.
cannot even have 1% of survival rate.
cause with that 1% will cause my parent's pocket a big hole,
so ya...
haiz...
hack care lar=.=
today sports day,
but at the stadium dam boring=.=
den still complusory 2 go lor...
but my house jaguar won,
just cause there are good runners la...
i join the court games netball n basketball,
but like useless since they never even mentioned it lor...
dunno join for what=.=
i think next year i joining running events,
but i dun think i will join 100m and 200m run,
cause the gun bang dam loud can=.=
i can stun there for quite some time ba....
so aiya next year den decide lor...
i was wondering if i jump what will your responds be,but actually i knew the answer long ago.you will never care bout how i felt,but i just couldn't forget your presence.you should be forgotten,but the memories of you is clearer than yesterday.i really wish you never existed,so i won't be suffering today.i couldn't be like others cut themselves,since i'm afraid of the pain.the only thing i can do is to jump,since jumping i can close my eyes and forget everthing.but is it worth jumpig for your sake?yes to me but maybe no to others.i really miss you alot everyday,wishing to see you every second is what i want.i've tried to persuade myself that having you is impossible,but i still can't stop dreaming about it.never know when will this dream stop,but wish it will soon.i really hate the stress the world is giving me,and u're not the one by my side helping me.without friends i would leave this world long ago,but under the current stress,i may really want 2 go soon.i don't know how long can i still take this stress,but i really won't want to hurt people who care for me.if i want to go,wish god takes my life away.i won't want 2 hurt myself without going away,and cause my parents to suffer with me.1 person suffering is enough.