.Thursday, April 22, 2010 ' 3:45 PM
so what is this shit all about...
does this have to happen?
especially making everything so clear during this period when the exams are real?
WHAT BECOMED OF US?
i thought it wasn't so bad,
i thought it's jus a misunderstanding.
i thought everything will get better,
we can always start anew.
buildings always can be repainted,
bedsheets can always be washed.
hair can always be re-tied,
make ups can always be re done.
but where did all this things go...
everything is out of my hands now,
everything is gone.
nobody tries to retrieve,
nobody tries to catch.
then why start this in the beginning...
from then til now i learnt alot,
i gain alot.
but i rather my life at that time til now was plain,
rather than losing everything at the end.
i tried,
but did you?
ok,
i'll let everything off.
i dont want to care anymore.
never again.
i shall just live my life til the end,
with my dreams and still dreams.
i tried to protect,
i tried.
but i failed.
grabbing onto a person,
is like grabbing onto a bird,
grabbing onto a fish,
grabbing onto a hamster,
grabbing onto a turtle.
they want freedom,
and by grabbing on they wont feel happy.
so i'm letting go,
as i know i shouldn't grab on,
and i cant grab on.
they will go someday.
after this i'll never do it again.
so can humans be trusted?
my answer is,
it depends on you.
we tend to not trust after being hurt,
but in the end we still give everything.
eventhough i kept 10%,
but it still hurts,
i know in the future i'll still trust,
and will still be hurt.
but i wish no more,
this feeling is terrible.
i want nothing from this.
everything is over.
over.