.Friday, June 18, 2010 ' 12:11 AM
haha... today 618 is ella's birthday=)
lols... 617 was their 3dog birthday.
the childrens of selina's dog pinky.
ok. so that's happy birthday to the dogs,
and of course to ella=)
k the starting was random.
just something i was reminded of when i wanted to type.
but the feeling which made me post wasn't that la.
jus like the whole holiday was so sian,
i camp at home now n do nth...
face the boring computer which i cant leave it,
do boring stuffs.
monday best lor...
cos got new episodes of show to keep me busy for like around 4hrs?
but other days i jus sian around online.
mapling, audition, find dramas to watch,
stare blankly at the computer.
like this few days got back watching old dramas which i liked alot,
suddenly feel stressed.
the stress doesn't come from the dramas definitely.
they was inside me all along.
just that i always don't express myself,
dont show it out.
actually i think this year i already changed due to the change of enviroment.
like i became more straight forward or so.
somehow good,
somehow bad.
from last year to this year was terrible.
like so much happen,
to me and around me.
other than the change faced during the period of sec 1 start,
this was the major 1.
i think the worst things which happened to me all happened during this period la...
but ok,
some frens will know some parts of it,
but definitely not the full story.
i dont think i'll let any1 know the full story la..
like ok,
i'm so zi bi.
just wish typing my feeling here will make me feel better,
like not so stressed up.
archade was a dam good place for me to destress for a moment,
but dun wanna keep going there la.
isn't a good thing to me or my pocket.
like so ... ,
volcano going erupt like that.
ok so i gonna control that.
i know it's not the 1st time that i felt things are best to be a dream,
but reality is reality.
just need to know how to face it and solve it.
like wtf=.=
pek cek lar...
i think i really need a break.
but that's impossible,
right?
will try to find a way to get out la.
haha...
like the,
i dun get out i'll be trapped.
dun wish to be trapped kaes.
haha
ok idk what crap i'm talking anw.
gonna have tution on monday,
maths.
wish things go well when school reopens lor.
i shall try to begin a fresh new me.
stress,
please go away. go into the cotton or what n not into humans pleaseeeeeeeee...
-ok, i'm not referring to any1 of you in the post.
things n matter i'm referring to i think only yang may know abit,
since i think i did mention some parts to her.
but i dun think any others know,
so ya.
dun think to much.
i shall start a new beginning,
when the next dawn comes...
or mayb the one after the next.
lols. i think i'm gonna keep dragging on.
haha. ok really feels better after this post.
thks blog,
you're my life saver.
OMG 12.33 already.
i gotta go sleep=)